Zoom Autism Magazine Issue 2 - Page 22

details that you have to focus on at once. And all these details of information come in at once, equally loud, and they all compete for first place. Even now I never know what to focus on and which details are important to me and which are not. I never see the global picture; I only see the details. And the details are never consistent; they always change. When someone talks to me in a chaotic place, for example, there are too many other forms of information that all come in just as loud. Their words are just one percent of the information, and very often, I just don’t even notice that they are talking to me. Even into my twenties, people often got angry at me, or they thought I was deaf because I didn’t respond to them. But when I had a hearing test, it turned out that my hearing was extremely good. I can hear sounds and frequencies that other people can’t even hear. The woman who administered the test was amazed by the result. In a world of too much stimuli, when I am working on a drawing, I only have to focus on one thing—the details of my drawing. This is one of the reasons why I love drawing so much. Seeing the whole world in tiny little details can be exhausting and chaotic, but it also helps me with a lot of things. I see certain things that other people just don’t see. I see tiny mistakes that 22 Zoom Autism Through Many Lenses need to be fixed that everybody else overlooked. Some details also really fascinate me, details that other people don’t see, and it makes me really appreciate certain beautifu