day I had an Ah ha! moment and I
realized that my daughter was here to
teach me how to become an enlightened
human being. The path of parenting
forced me to find a patience I did not
think was possible. I had to learn how to
get her to eat healthy food, go to sleep
on time, wear her clothes in the winter,
and stop biting her friends on the
playground. I felt like I lived in my laundry
room, and resented it until one day,
while washing 10,000 socks (at least it
felt like 10,000 socks! How can one
small creature go through so many
clothes in 24 hours?) all of a sudden I had
another Ah ha! I felt like I was the
mother of the world, washing the karma
out of all the souls (soles … LOL!) of the
planet and that doing this laundry was a
mitzvah (a good deed, a service), a great
purpose.
I began to laugh and then sing as I threw
the socks in the dryer. “Oh, now, I am
going to dry all the tears of the souls of
the planet!” All my resentment about
being stuck in the laundry room all day,
all my resentment about the career that
could not take off—my entire struggle
with motherhood—evaporated. All my
depression about feeling worthless
because I wasn’t out in the world being a
leader or breaking a glass ceiling
disappeared. I felt completely one with
the divine presence of Mother. I felt
whole and grateful for this extraordinary
realization. As mothers, we are thrown
into service whether we want it or not.
We get no paychecks or awards or great
accolades from society. But I could
choose to accept this role and make it a
gift instead of continuing to be torn in half
with guilt and resentment. And thus I
embarked on my true path of
enlightenment. My daughter, then later
my son, became my two wonderful
gurus—swirling, dancing, climbing,
messy, temper-tantrum throwing, loving,
adorable gurus.
mystic, guide, author, and founder of the
Radiance Healing Journey, a path to
enlightenment. My kids are now 24 and
18 and I am still, fully on the path of
motherhood as a path to enlightenment.
I am still being pressed into deeper and
deeper experiences of patience and non-
judgment as I am learning how to guide
them from arm’s length, without fully
letting go of the tether to mother. I am
still in the journey and what is unfolding
now is this enormous reservoir of
wisdom—our collective, ancestral
knowledge built mother to mother to
mother throughout the ages—carrying
humanity forward one child, one
adolescent, one young adult, one adult,
one aged person at a time.
No matter what the hurdles of
motherhood, with this as my experience,
I have to say I am just in the bliss of
enlightenment.
Motherhood, as a path to enlightenment,
became my passion. With gusto I seized
being in union with my children’s fresh
experience of the world—the wonder of
tiny crickets and the exuberance over
flying butterflies and slimy snails. Thus my
world became exalted with tiny things.
My intuition and awareness of life
expanded as I now viewed every chair,
table, and bottle top as potential
disasters. I became incredibly aware of
everything around me and I swear the
eye in the back of my head actually grew.
My psychic abilities were stimulated by
entering my children’s magical world, and
I began to experience their imaginary
friends, their angels, and even a few
ghosts (which I shooed away). You could
say that I was losing my mind. However,
I am going to counter that with the
thought that I was expanding my
consciousness to become aware of our
greater realities as a mother. All of this led
me directly to the work I do today as a
Mystical visionary Deirdre Hade is the
founder of The Radiance Journey. She
is the co-author of The (not so ) Little
Book of Surprises with her husband
William Arntz, the creator of the film
“What the BLEEP do We Know!?,” and
the author of the forthcoming book
The 12 Archetypes of Eve: A Modern
Woman’s Guide to Achieving Full
Feminine Power. Her website is
www.deirdrehade.com
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