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PROFILE interesting perceptions (if you ever get the pleasure to chat with him, you’ll know what I’m talking about). When I asked if he considered it a better perception, he shrugged, “It’s a unique perception, but it’s not better.” But where does it all start? trip in the Canadian Rockies. On the answering machine there was a message about a party, so I went and had literally two beers. On the way home, because of tiredness from 18 hours of driving—and because of the influence of the beers—I bumped into a curb and I cried out, ‘God help me with my drinking problem!’ It was a sudden realization that I had a problem. I mean, everyone I knew drank. It was in 1986, and nary has a drop passed my lips since that night.” “I was born with an artistic soul,” he explained, “Even when I was a kid I This was the beginning of his reconstruction into the lovable cyclist was always drawn to the arts.” we know today. Though he adorns a positive and bright attitude, the origins of “Living with no secrets about Kenneth’s artistic journey were not anything—It’s a great way to live. easy. He admitted that he never had Clarity.” any support. Artistic Soul fully freed, he made “I tried to stifle it. I had no parental up for lost time—acting, directing, encouragement. I had great parents, writing, painting, sketching— but they never encouraged me to do anything and everything. Of them, I inquired which was his favorite anything.” artistic endeavor. I was surprised by Life was hard, especially since his his answer, “Theatre. Period. There’s family immigrated from Scotland nothing like being on the stage.” when he was only four. It was an uncomfortable time, “I always thought Kenneth has performed in well over it was because I was an immigrant, fifty plays and had a hand in directing as well (for which he received an not used to the American Way.” award). Perhaps this explains a bit of His journey went down a dark road his expressive mannerisms. as he grew older. The stifling of his perceptions and interests forced him But it’s not about acting, sketching, to find an outlet—alcohol. At only or painting—It’s about the mindset eight years old he started to have of day-to-day life. a taste for it, and by fourteen was “I don’t see things the same way. I see drinking regularly. beauty in all kinds of things people don’t even notice. I don’t bother with ugliness most of the time. Ugliness has a message also, it’s not necessarily negative. But I love beauty.” “I realized I was trying to cover up my artistic soul with booze. I wasn’t facing reality—my reality. I never wanted to face reality, ever. My reality was I was a skinny little kid who didn’t fit in anywhere—until I started drinking.” When could ugliness not be negative? This dark reality clung to him for “When it teaches lessons.” another twenty-five years. I couldn’t help but smile as I was “I was 39 when I stopped drinking. logging his many words of wisdom. I was returning from a camping Who knew I would garner such insights within just a few hours of conversation? But one of his quotes caught me of f guard, “I don’t take the sky for granted,” he had mused, “A lot of years I walked with my head down. But when I looked up, it was like a spiritual awakening.” Rarely have a I heard something so impactful coming from a ‘regular’ person. It felt as though he had handed me my own spiritual awakening. If you really think about it—How many sunsets have gone unnoticed? How many stars overlooked or birdsongs unheard? Even now, I marvel at the decorations around me that I hadn’t noticed before (were there always giant sacks of coffee beans hanging from the ceiling in Rosallie?). Ask yourself—when was the last time something awed or inspired you? Have you even looked? Through Kenneth’s eyes exists a world which many do not (or refuse to) see, but I don’t think these ideologies are horded by the Artistic Souls of the world alone. I think, perhaps, it may come naturally for them, whereas with others it takes a little more work. Rediscovering the world, being true to yourself, finding what makes you happy—it doesn’t have to be hard. Just look up. A. M. Elm can be found at your local coffee shop writing wholesome tales, creative fiction, and thorough Yelp reviews (when the occasion calls for it). A graduate of Rollins College and an intern for Winter with the Writers, her mind is filled with a breadth of literary skill and talent that can sometimes be seen through her misplaced humor. Word also has it that she likes your outfit today—it really brings out your eyes. SEPTEMBER 2018 | WINTER GARDEN MAGAZINE |   41