The Trusty Servant May 2017 No.123 | Page 10

N o .123 T he T rusty S ervant He entered the school in the time of Joseph Warton, Headmaster and distinguished literary critic, who himself described the school, rather ominously, as a ‘cage of singing birds’, and one of the first poems preserved by the 19-year- old Le Mesurier was written to mourn another Head Man, Dr Burton, who is said to have ‘particularly wished to live ’till the boys returned to School’: tone, though this relationship becomes more complicated when he realises that the woman he is about to marry is thus confronted with the written evidence of a former attachment. ‘Cry grateful Sons o’er his now breathless Clay, ‘Twas all he wish’d, this last sad Office pay.’ ‘O spare me Love, and leave my Hopes to tow’r In Strength and native Vigour unconfin’d, Nor from those Cares to Learning’s Sons assign’d Thus draw me loit’ring in thy wanton Bow’r.’ Dr Burton was the first headmaster to move out of College and into the Commoner portion of the school, leaving the Second Master in charge of College, and the paintings known as ‘Dr Burton’s Commoners’ can still be seen adorning the walls of the Master in College’s dining room. Le Mesurier’s poetic facility also allowed him to participate in Lady Miller’s literary circle at Batheaston, writing verses to be drawn out of the ceremonial ‘urn’ for praise or censure; but the poems which I find most interesting are two sonnet sequences, one charting six years of torturingly unrequited love, and the other dutifully flogging his ‘Muse’ into the service of his highly polyphiloprogenitive marriage – he and his wife had 15 children in 14 years. Le Mesurier didn’t marry until he was 44, and his poetry provides one possible answer to our age’s prurient question of how a devout and conventional man dealt with a prolonged bachelorhood. The purgative powers of poetry had already been explored in the poem with which he opens his notebook, rather self-consciously entitled ‘The Author’s Apology for Himself’. Here he explains that ‘when the Spleen affects my Brain,/ I quickly vent it – through my Pen’, and reassures his readers that he means ‘no Harm’ by what he writes, but ‘merely to relieve myself’. He does, therefore, imagine readers, despite the confessional Le Mesurier finds love problematic. The first stirrings of passion see him begging Love to leave him alone and let him rise to his work: The girl causes him nothing but misery, not least because he fears in moments of clarity that she isn’t worth his agonies, but he is also fully aware that expressing himself in verse leaves him open to accusations of insincerity. The graphic physicality of his language, however, leaves us in no doubt of his state: ‘…the full Tide of Anguish, fuller grown By honour that repress’d it, thus to burst And thus subside, the pitying Muse inspir’d.’ It all goes horribly wrong: the moment she comes of age, she elopes with one of her father’s footmen, leaving Le Mesurier to tackle the conflicting emotions of disgust, love and what looks very like envy: ‘Foul Lust, with all its kindred vices stor’d Burst forth [that verb again], and such the madd’ning Rage she shar’d, She gloried in the wild Excess she dar’d,’ Nevertheless, he ends by asserting the quality of his love, claiming that he will ‘with Tears bemoan/ How hardly can a Heart like mine forget.’ And it is this Heart which he eventually, in 1799, brings battered but intact to the feet of his fiancée, Margaret, reassuring her that, despite the apparent poetic evidence, 10 ‘No, Margaret, no:‘tis now alone I love.’ Margaret could be forgiven, however, for thinking otherwise, as the rewards of married life seem totally to consume Le Mesurier’s bursting creative desires, and we might legitimately hear a tinge of guilt in the sonnets he eventually manages to squeeze out for her. ‘True ‘tis,’ he acknowledges, ‘now four Years have passed/ Since fir’d by thee I tun’d the humble Lyre’, though when we discover that they already have four children, we can’t be entirely surprised by his lack of generative zeal, particularly when the next sonnet begins ‘Yes, Marg’ret, stout your Boy is grown and tall, And now three Girls with Cheeks of roseate Hue And one more Son…’ And in 1810 he yields to circumstances, conceding, ‘Wife! For what more of praise than that one Name, What more of fond Endearment can this Heart Imagine, or this Tongue or Pen impart?’ B