trueCOWBOYmagazine Sept/Oct 2014 - Page 52

Stepping out of the “should do” fast lane and learning how to dance with uncomfortable emotions, experience peace, feel joy and non-judgmental comfort in our skin is not a pipe dream meant only for other people who have a different or “better” life. It is possible for every woman, man and every being. It is doable no matter where you are, what you have experienced, how disconnected you feel, how afraid you may be, or what age you are when you answer the call. Decades ago I read a book called, “Women Who Run With The Wolves” by Clarissa Pinkola Estes. I have re-read it a couple of times since then from my current place of honoring my wild Montana spirit and I appreciate it deeply, still. It moves me and reminds me to choose my path carefully, to pay attention to my authentic voice, pay attention to how our bodies and intuition tell us when we are off course, trust the wild wisdom that is a part of each of us and dare to live from that wild place. “Within every woman there is a wild and natural creature, a powerful force, filled with good instincts, passionate creativity, and ageless knowing. Her name is Wild Woman (Wild Horse) but she is an endangered species. Though the gifts of the wildish nature come to us at birth, society’s attempt to “civilize” us into rigid roles has plundered this treasure, and muffled the deep, life-giving messages of our own souls. Without Wild Woman (Wild Horse), we become over domesticated, fearful, uncreative, trapped.” Clarissa Pinkola-Estes, “Women Who Run With The Wolves”. There is much I want to do with the rest of my life and I cannot do it from the “should do, good girl” life sucking place. All of us can only do what we are meant to do with our one precious life by reconnecting with our original wild spirit. That authentic place where our loving relationship with ourselves determines the amount of love and truth and courage we are able to express in our lives with all beings. From the time I took a deep breath in 2004 and walked away from a career where I had lost myself, I haven’t looked back. That is not to say by any stretch of the imagination that I stepped into a blissfully easy life expressing my unique soul’s purpose.