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s e u g o l o n o M a n i g n Ma Ast r ans gent l emen, weof t enhear , “ genderi snotbet weenyourl egs , i t ’ sbet weenyourear s . ”Ofc our s eone’ sgeni t al sdo notdef i neone’ sgender , but , hey, l et ’ snott hr owoutt hebabywi t ht hebat hwat er !What ’ sbet weenourl egsmat t er s t oo!I nf ac t , what ’ sbet weenourl egsi sabi gpar tofwhowear e. Whet herwe’ vegotapeni soravagi na, orbot h, we s pendc ount l es shour st hi nki ngaboutwhatwe’ vegotdownt her e, r es ear c hi ngc hangesont hei nt er net , and, hopef ul l y, f i ndi ngf unwayst ogetdownwi t hour s el vesandot her s ! Sonomat t erwhatyouc al li t , wewantt ohearf r om youaboutwhatl i f e’ sl i kewi t hwhatyou’ vegot whet heri t sbet weenyourl egs , orupt op, whet heryourpr eop, pos t op, ornoop. Tos t ar tt hi ngsout , I ’ ms har i ngamonol ogueIwr ot e aboutmyvagi naaf ewyear sagof orat r ansandSpani s hi nc l us i vepr es ent at i onoft he“ Vagi nai s hMonol ogues ”i nHi ghl andPar k, CA. J i onni C. I wa sbor ni nNe wJ e r s e yF e br ua r y 2 6 , 1 9 8 3 .I wa sa nonl yc hi l d, a nd a tt hea g eof 3mypa r e n t ss e pa r a t e d.I tde v a s t a t e dme .Att hi s a g e , I a l s ok ne wt ha ts ome t hi ng wa sdi ffe r e n t .I woul dbe gmy pa r e n t st ol e tmewe a rbo y ’ s c l ot he sa nde v e ns c r e a me da nd c r i e df ort he mt obuymeas ui t .I l i k e dt opl a ywi t hbo y s ’ t o y sa ndt o dobo yt hi ng s .Dur i ngmye a r l y s c hool y e a r s , I r e me mbe rf e e l i ng l i k eI di dn' tfiti na n y whe r e . I c oul dn' tc onne c twi t hg i r l smy a g e , butI a l s oc oul dn' tc onne c t wi t hbo y s . Bot hof mypa r e n t sr e ma r r i e d whe nI wa s1 2y e a r sol d, a nd, i ns t a n t l y , I ha dnume r ouss t e p s i bl i ng s .Mymot he rma r r i e dama n whoonl yma r r i e dhe rt og e thi s Gr e e nCa r d, buts oonbe c a me a bus i v ebot hph y s i c a l l ya ndv e r ba l l y . T he n, a tt hea g eof 1 3 , I r e a l i z e d I wa sa r a c t e dt owome n, a ndI be c a mer e be l l i ous . I s t a r t e d us i ngdr ug s .I wa sk i c k e doutof s c hool nume r ous me sa nd s e n tofft odr ugr e ha b.Re ha b di dmor eha r mt ha ng ood, a nd i twa st he r et ha tI wa si n t r oduc e dt os t r ong e rdr ug s , mor e s pe c i fic a l l y , Coc a i ne .I be c a me ahug ef a nof Coc a i ne , a nd, be f or eI k ne wi t , a tt hea g eof 1 6 , I wa sa ddi c t e d.I s t r ug g l e d f oraf e wy e a r st og e tc l e a n, but di dnots uc c e e d.Mymot he r t r i e de v e r y t hi ngs hec oul d, a nd a sl o v i nga nds upporv eof me a ss hewa s , onet hi ngs t oodi n t hewa y :he rha t r e dt ha tI a t t he mec a meouta sal e s bi a n. Myf a t he rwa st oobus yi nhi s o wnl i f e( a tt he meg oi ngon hi s3 r dwi f et obewhodi dn' t l i k eme ) a ndj us tr e a l l ywa s n' t e mo ona l l ya a c he dt ome , a l t houg hhet houg h thewa s .He wa smor eof t het y pet ot hr o w me1 0 0dol l a r sa ndt hi nkt ha t wa sg oodpa r e nng . Att hea g eof 1 8 , a l mos t1 9 , my l i f ewa st ur ne dup s i dedo wn, whe nI f oundoutmymot he r ha ds t a g ef ourbr e a s tc a nc e r . S hewa sg i v e n2mon t hst ol i v e , butI wa sbl e s s e dt oha v ehe r f ora not he r2y e a r s .Butdur i ng t hos e2y e a r sI we n tt hr oug h he l l .I ha dt ot a k ec a r eof he r f ul lme :ba t hehe r , dr e s she r , t a k ehe rba c ka ndf or t ht ot he doc t or sa ndhe rc he mot he r a p y t r e a t me n t s , a ndme di c a l l yt a k e c a r eof he rs i nc ewec oul dnot a ffor da na thomenur s e , a s we l l a st a k ec a r eof mys t e p br ot he rwhowa si nmi ddl e s c hool a ndmys t e ps i s t e rwho wa s9mon t hsy oung e rt ha n me .Wes t r ug g l e dt oha v e e noug hf oodi nt hehous e , but wema dei twor k .Bute v e r y da yi tf e l tl i k eI wa swa t c hi ng mymot he rs l o wl ydi e . T he na tt hea g eof 2 1 , a ndmy