1:41 and I scan the hallways
hoping to see your face
Nothing
It's curious
I barely see you anymore
Yet you're everywhere I look I see us in
the halls I'm standing in We're sitting
close together like we used to do all the
time my head on your shoulder
and your arm around me I wish I could
go back more than anything
2:33 and school is over
I exchanged one word with you
More than I usually get
I consider it a good day
6:20 and my homework remains
uncompleted I can't focus with the
heavy weight of you
I am foolish
I tell myself that someday
things will be the same as they used to
be
that maybe we can pretend
that nothing has changed since then
I knew those ridiculous thoughts
could only carry me so far
10:00 and I climb into bed
It's exhausting, missing you
My heavy eyelids slowly close
but I do not sleep
I reminisce about back
when I could talk to you openly
and you listened and cared
Just past midnight and I'm still awake
My pain becomes crushing
I need you
I love you
I have nothing if I don't have you
There's no hiding from it now
1:17 and I’m sobbing
A stream pouring over
my flushed red cheeks
It seems that all I ever do
when I’m by myself is cry
It's just all too real
I want to turn back and run
Avoid reality
But I cannot
2:05 and you've engulfed my mind
Sleepy eyes and a tired soul
But rest doesn't come
until it hesitantly creeps over me at
3:51 and I picture you beside me
your arms wrapped around my weak
body
You whisper in my ear
You say you're sorry about how things
have been lately
But nothing has changed, really
We're the same
It's not us that's different
Not the memories
Not the heartbreaking truth
It's what we still want
And what we've given up on
I can deal with a lot
You'd be surprised
what I have to live with
I just can’t live without you
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