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Returning to God By: Ellen Strachan W hen I passed by you again and saw you, behold, you were at the age for love, and I spread the corner of My garment over you and covered your nakedness; I made My vow to you and entered into a covenant with you, declares the Lord God, and you became mine” (Ezekiel 16:8). How long it took me to realize the truth! God is in a covenant of love with me, and it cannot be broken. I took the hard path to come to this. It took removing me from my home, my family, my friends, my boyfriend, my world, and coming to a new environment, new people, new ideas, new goals, new life. That’s what Camp Tejas was to me. I lived thinking I was following God’s will but realized when I got here, I was only following the will I had for myself. I had fallen into the belief that I could never come back to God, and He would never accept me. Then I realized that I do belong to the Lord! I have come to desire the moments I spend with God, and I recognize my need for that peace everyday. God showed me this summer how His plans for me are much better than my own plans. Although I thought my plans were perfect, God revealed many ?aws in them. He showed me how, even though it may be extremely dif?cult, it is so much better to follow Him though it may bring sorrow. “Blessed are those who weep, for they will comforted” (Matthew 5:4). Being in a place like Camp Tejas stretched me so much spiritually that the only choice I had was to turn to God. He gave me the strength to keep going. I always thought I knew God, and that I was growing. The more I learn of Him, the greater I realize that I know nothing! It was made clear to me this summer that while at one point I had been growing, I was caught in a standstill. My walk was about experience and emotions, not trust and obe- dience. Thanks to the opportunity to serve at Camp Tejas this summer, I am fully convinced that my walk with the Lord is a real and true thing, not one that falls away as before. Rather, I pick up my cross everyday and follow. I focus on the goal, and take up Jesus’ yoke. He has put a real and true peace in my heart. tejas journal you became mine 26 Servanthood By: Kim Eskew T many.” Likewise, Philippians 2:5-8 speaks of Christ’s willingness to lay down His rights as God and become the servant of His own creation. The passage states that our attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus. Therefore, if Christ was willing to make Himself our servant, how much more should we be eager and willing to serve others. I’ve come to realize this summer that to hear these words and to actually live them out are two entirely different things. Consider Christ’s example for a moment. He was not just serving when He died on the cross or when He washed His disciples’ feet. Although these are great examples of His servant’s heart, Jesus served everyone He met at all times. In other words, serving others consumed all of His time. It was not until I came to camp that I realized that we are called to do the same as followers of Christ. Being a servant means that we should be willing to serve others in our everyday lives, not just when it is easy or fun. You see, the most important lesson I’ve learned this summer is that you are not just a servant sometimes. Being a servant is an act of constant humility, always placing others before yourself every moment of every day. attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus o live in an environment where you are constantly required to put the interests of others before yourself was a foreign concept to me. The dictionary de?nes a servant as one who expresses submission, recognizance, or a debt to another; but for the Summer Ministry Team, these mere words cannot come close to expressing the de?nition we now have of being a servant. One of the things we have been focusing on is serving others the way Christ served. Mark 10:45, our theme verse, says, “For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve, and to give His life as a ransom for