The Science Behind the Law of Attraction Magazine June, 2016 | Page 28
Ar r r gggh ! An d I Th ou gh t I Was So Spi r i t u al
By El l en Wood, Feat u r ed Col u m n i st
Yes! I know I am a powerful, magnificent being
? a spark of the infinite. And yes, I know that
by taking regular breaks from my own
thoughts I can open to inspiration from the
divine.
Easier said than done, though, especially
when life sends us challenges. I know. My last
challenge was a doozy: someone I had been
close to decades ago sent me a mean, hurtful
letter. Although I decided not to respond, I
could feel the vibration of anger seething
through my body as my mind kept chewing on
those words over and over.
I prayed: I can?t carry this any longer; take it
from me ? but it wasn?t working. That?s
because, I soon realized, my prayer wasn?t
truthful. While one part of me was saying I
want to ?let go and let God?, another part was
saying: this really hurt and I want to keep
playing this movie.
Why do things happen that we seem to have
no control over? Things that anger us or make
us fearful or cause us physical pain. Maybe it?s
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so we can realize that we can?t control life?s
distressing situations ? they just happen. To
everyone. Or maybe it?s to discover that they
are enormous gifts helping us surrender our
personal agenda in favor of the greater truth.
Or maybe it?s so we can understand that the
only thing under our control is how we react
to what happens. Perhaps it?s all of these.
I stayed close to home so my emotions
wouldn?t spill onto anyone else. Weighed
down by what seemed like anvils on my
shoulders, I went for long walks on a deserted
path near my house to be swaddled by nature.
Soon I felt prompted to practice releasing
toxic emotions: allowing my anger to spill out
by focusing on the intense feelings, then
dropping the story. Over and over ? focusing
on feelings, dropping the story ? until I could
actually feel the release of that negative
charge and I became lighter. I said prayers of
gratitude. Then little by little, I could detect
the subtle sensation of loving energy
activating my body ? and a whisper of peace.
That was when I realized that this is what the
shift in consciousness is all about. It's a