The Science Behind the Law of Attraction Magazine June, 2016 - Page 28

Ar r r gggh ! An d I Th ou gh t I Was So Spi r i t u al By El l en Wood, Feat u r ed Col u m n i st Yes! I know I am a powerful, magnificent being ? a spark of the infinite. And yes, I know that by taking regular breaks from my own thoughts I can open to inspiration from the divine. Easier said than done, though, especially when life sends us challenges. I know. My last challenge was a doozy: someone I had been close to decades ago sent me a mean, hurtful letter. Although I decided not to respond, I could feel the vibration of anger seething through my body as my mind kept chewing on those words over and over. I prayed: I can?t carry this any longer; take it from me ? but it wasn?t working. That?s because, I soon realized, my prayer wasn?t truthful. While one part of me was saying I want to ?let go and let God?, another part was saying: this really hurt and I want to keep playing this movie. Why do things happen that we seem to have no control over? Things that anger us or make us fearful or cause us physical pain. Maybe it?s Page 28 - June, 2016 so we can realize that we can?t control life?s distressing situations ? they just happen. To everyone. Or maybe it?s to discover that they are enormous gifts helping us surrender our personal agenda in favor of the greater truth. Or maybe it?s so we can understand that the only thing under our control is how we react to what happens. Perhaps it?s all of these. I stayed close to home so my emotions wouldn?t spill onto anyone else. Weighed down by what seemed like anvils on my shoulders, I went for long walks on a deserted path near my house to be swaddled by nature. Soon I felt prompted to practice releasing toxic emotions: allowing my anger to spill out by focusing on the intense feelings, then dropping the story. Over and over ? focusing on feelings, dropping the story ? until I could actually feel the release of that negative charge and I became lighter. I said prayers of gratitude. Then little by little, I could detect the subtle sensation of loving energy activating my body ? and a whisper of peace. That was when I realized that this is what the shift in consciousness is all about. It's a