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THE P RTAL January 2016 Page 10 Thoughts on Newman The Jubilee of Mercy What would Blessed John Henry Newman have to say about the Jubilee Year of Mercy? The Revd Dr Stephen Morgan points us in the right direction T he 2016th Year of our Salvation is one with powerful resonances for those who seek to further the cause of Blessed John Henry Newman, for it is the bicentenary of what he referred to as his “first conversion”. That it is also a jubilee year dedicated to the theme of God’s mercy is one of those happy conjunctions that our non-believing neighbours and fri ends might call a co-incidence but which we can rejoice in as an out working of the mysterious providence of our loving Father. In the autumn of 1816, the young Newman was unwell and spent the season reading, amongst other things, Calvinist devotional books to which his tutor, Walter Mayers, had directed his attention. The effect of this reading is recorded in forensic detail in his great spiritual autobiography, the Apologia pro vita sua of 1864:  When I was fifteen, ... a great change of thought took place in me. I fell under the influences of a definite Creed, and received into my intellect impressions of dogma, which, through God’s mercy, have never been effaced or obscured. ... and making me rest in the thought of two and two only absolute and luminously self-evident beings, myself and my Creator; — for while I considered myself predestined to salvation, my mind did not dwell upon others, as fancying them simply passed over, not predestined to eternal death. I only thought of the mercy to myself. (Apologia, p3) detestable doctrine Whilst later coming to see his own predestination to salvation and the consequent indifference to the eternal fate of others as a “detestable doctrine”, it is interesting to note that it is in the context of an explicitly dogmatic conception of the faith that Newman encounters divine mercy.   antinomian chaos Our own age is even more given to religious liberalism than the nineteenth century and it would, no doubt, have greatly exercised Newman that the Catholic Church seems quite as much prey to the antidogmatic principle in our time as did the Church of contents page England in his own. He saw where that led: to an antinomian chaos in doctrine and morals, incapable of making the elementary distinction between licence and mercy. His own meditations and devotions, written more than half-a-century after his first conversion, were often aimed at evoking a lively sense of the need for God’s mercy - available, then as now - primarily through the great Sacrament of Reconciliation. What Newman saw, with startling clarity, is that the starting point for coming to understand our need for God’s mercy lies in the staggering truth of God’s existence. He expresses it best in a devotion entitled “Against you alone have I sinned” - a prayer we might usefully make our own in this Year of Mercy:   ...beg Thee, O my dear Saviour, to recover me! Thy grace alone can do it. I cannot save myself. I cannot recover my lost ground. I cannot turn to Thee, I cannot please Thee, or save my soul without Thee. I shall go from bad to worse, I shall fall from Thee entirely, I shall quite harden myself against my neglect of duty, if I rely on my own strength. I shall make myself my centre instead of making Thee. I shall worship some idol of my own framing instead of Thee, the only true God and my Maker, unless Thou hinder it by Thy grace. O my dear Lord, hear me! I have lived long enough in this undecided, wavering, unsatisfactory state. I wish to be Thy good servant. I wish to sin no more. Be gracious to me, and enable me to be what I know I ought to be.