The Portal December 2018 | Page 10

THE P RTAL December 2018 Page 10 Thoughts on Newman Turning of the Year Dr Stephen Morgan I t is a commonplace that the older one gets, the faster time seems to pass: the summer holidays of my school days stretched out for ever and yet this last summer’s glory was gone in the blink of an eye; I’m even prepared to speculate school Greek Grammar Lessons which were as close to the eternal as my eleven year old self could conceive of, would now whizz by…well, perhaps not (pace Mrs Mitchell). Psychologists propose a number of reasons for this change in perception: favourite amongst them is that memory measures time by recording not the regular markers of linear time that make a physical impression upon us, such as the days and seasons, but, instead, the occurrence of new experiences. Remembering the precise order of the occurrence of things that happen in our life becomes more and more difficult and we are regularly surprised by just how much time has elapsed since things that seem relatively recent occurred. Being put to proof on these matters becomes ever more difficult. Which of us could, with accuracy, give a detailed account of the events, thoughts, emotions and subtle developments of religious belief that preceded our conversion – our reception into full communion, if you prefer that expression (I do not). of the wicked world which marries and is given in marriage.  Whether his notion be doctrinally correct or not, it is, at least, historically so. The accusation was that Newman had been either religiously inconsistent or simply dishonest in remaining in the Church of England whilst already convinced of the truths of Catholicism. Kingsley’s charge was that Newman either lied when, post-conversion, he said that it was his deepening understanding of the truth, to which he remained ever faithful, that had led him from the Communion of his baptism to the Catholic Church, or that he had lied when, whilst still a clergyman of the Established Church, Newman (and by implication his fellow Tractarians) had claimed to be a faithful Anglican seeking not to subvert the CofE but to recover its true identity. I think that almost every convert – especially every convert from Anglican/Episcopalian Christianity – has When Charles Kingsley traduced his integrity, had at least one such allegation leveled at him or her. honesty and straightforwardness in 1863/4, Newman In his response to Kingsley, Newman engaged in the was compelled to undertake exactly such a task. It is most extraordinary feat of memory – aided, of course, – I suppose – possible that Newman might have left by his letters, journals and notes, but undoubtedly a the defamation uncommented upon but he was very prodigious exercise in trawling his recollection not conscious that he was not simply a private person with just of events but of thoughts, feelings and developing religious sentiment. only his own reputation to consider. He was, first and foremost, a Catholic priest and Kingsley’s libel (published initially almost pseudonymously – only initials were used – in the January 1864 edition of Macmillan’s Magazine, which appeared in December of the previous year and was then expanded in a 48-page tract What, Then, Does Dr Newman Mean?) had not only traduced Newman but every Catholic priest, writing: The product, his Apologia pro vita sua, is, perhaps, quite the best religious autobiography ever written but it is something else too: it is a reminder to us all to cherish the story of our conversion, for our own soul’s sake but also for the edification of others. Who can know how many have come to know the consoling joy of the Communion of Saints in all its fullness because of the witness of our recollection of the turning years. Truth for its own sake has never been a virtue with the Roman clergy.  Father Newman informs us that it PS. My students gave very sound presentations and need not be, and on the whole ought not to be; — that cunning is the weapon which Heaven has given to the have formed the distinct opinion that Newman really saints wherewith to withstand the brute male force understood Irenaeus like no one else!