The Portal April 2019 | Page 22

THE P RTAL April 2019 Page 22 Living in the desert Fr Michael Halsall My son, if you come forward to serve the Lord, prepare yourself for temptation. (Ecclesiasticus 2:1)  W e read on the First Sunday of Lent that Jesus was ‘led up’ by the Holy Spirit, to live for an indefinite time in the desert. It was there that he truly began to realise his vocation as the Son of Man and Son of God. Deprivation, hostility and temptation were his lot for 40 days and nights. Here the fullness of God’s kenosis is revealed – not in power, but in humility and struggle.  This inner struggle, to overcome the struggles of human frailty, is hauntingly portrayed in Ivan Kramskoi’s famous painting, with its depiction of a drawn face, gnarled hands, staring at a dry cold rock. It is a sorry sight as Lent begins, but is transformed in the Second Sunday with the Transfiguration. life. Unlike the rest of God’s people, the priest is called to a “complete giving of himself for the service of the people of God, as an image of Christ the Spouse” (Ratio, 39). This kind of unconditional service will demand both maternal as well as paternal love.  If those who are A life identified genuinely called to with Jesus takes us priesthood within through the helter- the Church wish skelter experiences of to be configured to his earthly existence, and our offerings are assumed Christ, then they can only do so by walking with him, into his own. Our failures and doubts, our desire for carrying their own cross daily, and counting it a joy. St self-determination wrestle with the inner call to reach Thomas More once said to his children, “We cannot go out and identify with the ‘other’: God in man made to heaven in featherbeds.” This was in 1510, when he manifest.  was a successful businessman and negotiator. When life appears to serve us well, we must not forget that The 2016 Ratio Fundamentalis – the latest Church the temptation for physical and material comfort often document on priestly formation – uses the language leads us from our true calling.  of ‘Configuration to Christ’ whereby the seminarian first and then the priest, are to identify in their souls Reading on in Ecclesiastes chapter 2, we are told to, and bodies with our Lord; to participate in his one “Trust in him, and he will help you; make your ways priesthood and saving-mission, as co-workers with straight, and hope in him”. If a heart sincerely wishes the bishops and the whole people of God (para 35). to serve God, then He can make it possible. We have only to trust, and step out into the water … and at He who gives his own life as a sacrifice presents times, live in the desert. himself as the Good Shepherd, to gather the scattered Fr Halsall is the Director of Vocations sheep, and to lead them into the sheepfold of the Kingdom of God. The Ordinariates have a particular and Formation for the Ordinariate role to play in this regard, amongst our Anglican of Our Lady of Walsingham, friends and neighbours. and is a member of the permanent The life of the shepherd is tough and, at times lonely. Priesthood does not offer an easy ride through staff at Allen Hall Seminary. He may be contacted as follows: [email protected]