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If you've tried to get close to me but my guard was up.
If I've pushed you away.
Or I didn't try to make you stay.
It wasn't that I didn't care
I just figured you knew that I did.
How selfish of me to think that you could hear the thoughts I wasn't even sure of yet.
It wasn't your fault,
I take full blame.
So now I'm alone
And it'll probably always be that way.
You tried to welcome me.
I'm not fully okay with myself,
So I didn't see your gesture.
To my old buddy ,
My long lost friends,
To my almost lover ,
And my ex bestfriends,
I'm so sorry.
This is my lesson learned
Don't let fear take the fun away.
A heavy heart
held down by fear
will it be me
or my brother next year?
I can’t help but be resentful
to pull at the fraying ends
when we are marked as animals,
target practice
we need an answer
for why they hate us
degrade us, murder us
in the street it
while our justice system
congratulates them, pays them
while they get rich, we bleed