Should I feel ashamed because he doesn’t love me
Or should I feel ashamed because I’m the one who gave it up willingly
I never asked for love for love
In return I never received it
Shame I feel ashamed
Am I the one to blame
Or was I just another pawn in love’s game
Or a victim of lust’s flames
Why do I feel ashamed?
Why do I feel covered in sin?
My body is a forbidden temple and I let him in
Again and again and again
He doesn’t understand that I am who I am
That’s far more than he can comprehend
Sometimes I want to open up and let him inside
But my guarded heart will never let him win
The battle fought between soul and mind
So the choice is to leave him behind
On the shelf where all he will be is a memory
I am ashamed because I am afraid
I can open my legs but not my heart
From letting things go before they go too far
For hiding behind my heart’s steel bar
Shame
A poem by Chantevia McDonald