The Mahdi Times September 2011 | Page 41

Another sign came to me when I found myself faced with a very tough decision. After accepting the call of Imam Ahmad al-Hassan (AS) and taking the steps to make changes in my life in order to become closer to my Creator, I knew it was impossible for me to return to my old life in the America. But upon making this decision I found myself being threatened if I did not return, but if I did return I knew it was inevitable that my faith would be the one to be threatened. So that very day Abdullah again called me to watch the latest episode of TADS, which was episode 216 (The Yamani's 13 Rajab Statement). As we watched together there was that very Sheikh again, only this time he spoke these words, and I knew once again they were God’s way of offering me comfort; "And Allah said; 'Do not be weakened, and do not be sad. You are the Higher Ones, IF you are believers. No matter how hard the directions of Disbelief, Misguidance and the ones who are at odds with us try to oppress the modern advancements of the Shia, No matter how stubborn and persistent our enemies are with fighting us with their tricks, they shall not succeed. Victory will no doubt be our ally because we are the higher ones." "If the believers work by their faith then no one will be higher than them and no one will have the upper hand over them or have a way with them As such said Allah; 'and Allah will not allow the disbelievers to have the upper hand over the believers'" After hearing this I felt at ease, and continued about my day normally. That night I started reading 'The Lantern of the Path, by Imam Jafa'ar al-Sadiq (AS)', as I read I found my self very distracted. I found myself once again engrossed in deep thought about this decision, as it was most definitely not an easy one and one that came with great consequences. I remember I stopped reading for a moment and I thought to myself 'Oh Allah, Most Merciful, Most High, please confirm this decision for me, as I only wish to please you, and my biggest fear is making an ill decision so please confirm for me what is in my heart if that is what you choose for me'. Upon finishing saying this I looked down to the very next paragraph I was about to read and it read as follows; "Cut yourself off from what makes you forget to remember Allah, when temptation distracts you from obedience to Him, for that comes from the friends and helpers of Satan. Do not allow the sight of them to move you to dissimulation with the truth, for that would be a terrible loss indeed. We seek refuge with Almighty Allah." So there was my confirmation, I asked and the One, the Conqueror answered through this book I was reading.  Another day I woke up feeling  very sad and very alone. I spent the day in seclusion in my room reading hadith and praying and just speaking in my mind to our Imam (AS). After being in there most of the day, I came out for a drink or something, and the moment i stepped out i noticed the TV was on but no one was in the room. And the TV was frozen on Al Jazeera, and everything on the screen was fuzzy except the words across the bottom of the screen which read "Absolute faith in Allah", and it was like I new that was a sign from Allah (SWT) telling me everything was going to be ok I just needed to have faith in Him. And Instantly I remember a calm feeling sweeping over me, and I felt such at peace.  Another