Monochrome
Edwina Burton
What is happiness
I never met her
I can’t remember the last time I was happy
I can't remember the last time I laughed truly
I can’t remember the last time I woke up in a good mood
I can’t remember the last time my source
of happiness came from my heart and not a pill
I cried today
I cried this morning
I cried last night
And yesterday afternoon
All my friends could do was look at me with sad eyes
Ask if I was okay
And if I wanted anything
Honestly I couldn't tell them what I wanted
Because I knew they couldn’t help
The one thing I want in this life is happiness
But I can’t be happy
I'll never be happy because
I'm the reason I’m sad
I'm the bane of my own existence and
realizing that is the reason
I can’t be happy
I can’t laugh truly
I can’t wake up in a good mood
And I most certainly
Can’t have my happiness come from my
heart and not a pill.