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order to make you feel better. I imagine that having siblings
involved in your situation doesn’t make it very easy to leave
either. There are many negatives to staying with your father,
though. Your father is trying to put you in your mother’s role.
He is belittling you in doing so. Your wages are not being given
to you unless you beg for them, even just to buy food. You are
being put in a very unhealthy environment because you feel
you need to live up to a promise you made your mom. This
promise is again impossible for anyone human. Each
individual in your family would have to work together in order
for the family to stay stable. Your mother also mentions a lot
that after pleasure comes pain. I think she is hinting that after
the good times with your dad came the pain and she is trying
to warn you to not stay and endure pain like her. Staying with
your father because you are more comfortable is the wrong
idea.
Frank wants to be your escape. He wants to illuminate your
pain and protect you. It is questionable how much you can
actually trust Frank. On the other hand, trusting anyone can
be questionable even people you know very well. Fearing the
unknown is normal. You fear the things you don’t know but
you can’t let the fear take over so much that you don’t use the