Subcutaneous Magazine Fall 2016 - Page 92

a door. The dream was so intense when I awoke I could still hear the knocking so I looked at my bedroom door thinking I might catch a glimpse of the man. As soon as I fell asleep, the knocking started again and I woke up. This happened one more time. When I woke up in the morning I thought about the man in my dream. Usually when I dream of a man he is naked so this was completely new to me. In this dream, the man was trying to get my attention and wake me up. He did. I had seen this elderly man with a grey beard before. He was on the altar at Ρ‘”Y½½‘½ΌΡ•΅Α±”₯Έ9•ά=Ι±•…ΉΜΈ!₯́Ή…΅”₯Μ)A…Α„1•‰„Έ($)A…Α„1•‰„₯́ё”ΝΑ₯Ι₯Π°½Θ±έ„¨°½˜Ρ‘”Ι½ΝΝΙ½…‘Μ)…Ή½΅΅ΥΉ₯…Ρ₯½ΈΈ!”½Α•ΉΜΡ‘”‘½½Θ™½Θ…±°½˜Ρ‘”)ΝΑ₯Ι₯ΡΜΈ!”₯́ё”™₯ΙΝЁΝΑ₯Ι₯ЁΙ••Ρ•₯Έ…±°Y½½‘½Ό•Ι•΅½Ή₯•ΜΈ!₯́ΉΥ΅‰•Θ₯́ёɕ”Έ]‘•Έ$ΑΥЁ₯Ё…±°Ρ½•Ρ‘•Θ)$Ι•…±₯镐Ρ‘…ЁA…Α„1•‰„­Ή½­•½ΈΡ‘”‘½½ΘΡ‘Ι•”)Ρ₯΅•ΜΝΌ$έ½Υ±½Α•Έ₯Ё…Ή₯ΉΩ₯Ρ”‘₯΄…Ή…±°Ρ‘”½Ρ‘•ΘΝΑ₯Ι₯Ρ́₯ΉΡΌ΅δ±₯™”Έ1₯ΡΡ±”‘₯$­Ή½ά΅δ±₯™”έ…́½₯ΉœΡΌ‘…Ή”‘Ι…ΝΡ₯…±±δΈ($)Q‘”™₯ΙΝЁё₯Ήœ$‘₯έ…́ѼΝΡ…ΙЁ‰Υ₯±‘₯Ήœ…Έ…±Ρ…ȁ™½ΘA…Α„1•‰„Έ5½ΝЁ½˜Ρ‘”±έ„…Ι”½ΉΉ•Ρ•ΡΌ) …Ρ‘½±₯ŒΝ…₯ΉΡΜΈQ‘₯́Ν幍ɕΡ₯ŒΝεΝΡ•΄₯́ё”Ι•ΝձЁ½˜Ρ‘”)ΡΙ…ΉΝ…Ρ±…ΉΡ₯ŒΝ±…Ω”ΡΙ…‘”ΈQ‘”Ν±…ٕ́ݕɔΉ½Π…±±½έ•ΡΌ)‰Ι₯ΉœΡ‘•₯ȁΝΑ₯Ι₯Ρ́έ₯Ρ Ρ‘•΄™Ι½΄™Ι₯„…ΉΡ‘•δέ•Ι”)΅…₯΅•°Ν½΅•Ρ₯΅•Μ­₯±±•°₯˜Ρ‘•₯ȁ½έΉ•Ί…՝‘Ёё•΄)Ω•Ή•Ι…Ρ₯ΉœΡ‘•₯ȁΝΑ₯Ι₯ΡΜΈQ‘”Ν±…ٕ́Ι•…Ρ•„ΝεΝΡ•΄₯Έ)½Ι‘•ΘΡΌ­••ΐΡ‘•₯ȁ₯Ή‘₯•Ή½Ύɕ±₯₯½Έ…±₯Ω”ΈΥΙ₯Ήœ)Ρ‘”™½Ι•½ΉΩ•ΙΝ₯½Έ°Ν±…ٕ́ݕɔΝ‘½έΈ₯΅…•Μ½˜Ρ‘”) …Ρ‘½±₯ŒΝ…₯ΉΡΜΈ]‘•ΈΡ‘”Ν±…ٕ́ͅ܁ё”₯΅…”½˜MΠΈ)1…ι…ΙΥΜ°Ρ‘•δΡ‘½Υ‘Ё½˜A…Α„1•‰„‰•…ΥΝ”1•‰„₯Μ)…±ΝΌ…Έ½±΅…Έέ₯Ρ „‰•…ɐ…Ή„…Ή”쁑•Ή”°1•‰„‰•…΅”M…₯ΉΠ1…ι…ΙΥΜΈ1•‰„₯́…±ΝΌ½ΉΉ•Ρ•έ₯Ρ )M…₯ΉΠA•Ρ•Θ…ΉM…₯ΉΠΉΡ‘½ΉδΈ($)™Ρ•Θ±½½­₯Ήœ…Ёё”Ρ‘Ι•”Ν…₯ΉΡΜ°$‘½Ν”MΠΈ)1…ι…ΙΎ™½Θ΅δ…±Ρ…ȁͼ$½Ι‘•Ι•„ΝΡ…ΡΥ”½˜‘₯΄™Ι½΄)΅…ι½ΈΈ½ΙΡΥΉ…Ρ•±δ°$½Π„‰₯œ½Ή”™½Θ‘•…ΐΈ$±₯­”΅δ)΅•Έ‰₯œ…Ή‘•…ΐΈ=Ή”Ρ‘”ΝΡ…ΡΥ”…ΙΙ₯Ω•°$ΑΥЁ₯ЁΉ•αΠ)ΡΌ΅δ‰•‘Ι½½΄‘½½ΘΈΈ…±Ρ…ȁ™½ΘA…Α„1•‰„₯́ΡεΑ₯…±±δΑ±…•Ή•αЁѼ„‘½½Ι݅䁉•…ΥΝ”‘”₯́ё”ΝΑ₯Ι₯Π)έ‘Ό½Α•ΉΜΡ‘”‘½½Θ™½Θ…±°½˜Ρ‘”½Ρ‘•ΘΝΑ₯Ι₯ΡΜΈ$…±ΝΌ)ΑΥЁ„Υΐ½˜½™™•”°Α½Α½ΙΈ…ΉΑ•ΑΑ•Ι΅₯ΉΠ…Ή‘₯•Μ)Ή•αЁѼΡ‘”ΝΡ…ΡΥ”€‘‘”±₯­•Μ…Ή‘₯•Μ€ΈЁ™₯ΙΝЁ$Ρ‘½Υ‘Π)₯Ё݅́ΝΡΙ…Ή”ΡΌ±•…Ω”•‘₯‰±”½™™•Ι₯ΉΜΡΌ„ΝΑ₯Ι₯Π°‰ΥΠ)Ρ‘•Έ$Ι•…±₯镐Ρ‘…Ёё•Ν”…Ι”₯™Ρ́½˜Ι…Ρ₯ΡΥ‘”Έ$Ν•”΅δ)ΝΑ₯Ι₯ЁΥ₯‘•Μ…́±½Ν”™Ι₯•Ή‘́…Ή₯˜$έ•Ι”ΡΌ…Ν¬„±½Ν”)‘Υ΅…Έ™Ι₯•Ή™½Θ…ΝΝ₯ΝΡ…Ή”°$έ½Υ±Ρ‘…Ή¬Ρ‘•΄έ₯Ρ )ݽɑ́…Ή„₯™ΠΈ$…΄½ΉΝΡ…ΉΡ±δ…Ν­₯Ήœ1•‰„™½Θ‘•±ΐ)ΝΌ₯ΈΙ•ΡΥΙΈ$₯Ω”‘₯΄½™™•Ι₯ΉΜΈ$‘ΌΉ½Πέ…ΉΠΡΌ‰”)½Ή”½˜Ρ‘½Ν”™Ι₯•Ή‘́ݑΌ©ΥΝЁɕ•₯ٕ́…Ή‘½•ΜΉ½Π₯Ω”)‰…¬Έ($)]‘•Έ$έ…ΉΠΡΌΡ…±¬ΡΌA…Α„1•‰„°$Ν₯Ё₯Έ™Ι½ΉΠ)½˜Ρ‘”…±Ρ…ȁ…ΉΡ•±°‘₯΄ΡΌ½Α•ΈΡ‘”…Ρ”…Ή½΅”½Έ)ёɽ՝ ΈQ‘•Έ$Ρ…±¬ΡΌ‘₯΄±₯­”„™Ι₯•ΉΈM½΅•Ρ₯΅•Μ$)…Ν¬‘₯΄™½Θ‘•±ΐ…ΉΝ½΅•Ρ₯΅•Μ$©ΥΝЁΝ₯Ё₯Έ™Ι½ΉΠ½˜Ρ‘”)…±Ρ…ȁ…Ή΅•‘₯Ρ…Ρ”Έ=Ή”Ρ₯΅”έ‘•Έ$έ…́Ν₯ΡΡ₯Ήœ₯Έ™Ι½ΉΠ)½˜Ρ‘”…±Ρ…ȁ$‘……Έ½ΥЁ½˜‰½‘䁕αΑ•Ι₯•Ή”Έ́$έ…Μ)Ν₯ΡΡ₯Ήœ₯Έ™Ι½ΉΠ½˜Ρ‘”…±Ρ…ȁ„™••±₯Ήœ½˜Ι•…ЁΑ•…”…Ή)©½δ…΅”½Ω•Θ΅”ΈQ₯΅”ΝΡ½ΑΑ•Έ$‘…‰•½΅”½Ή”(©1έ„₯́…Ή½Ρ‘•ΘΡ•Ι΄ΥΝ•™½ΘΝΑ₯Ι₯Ё₯ΈY½½‘½ΌΈ()έ₯Ρ Ρ‘”•ΉΡ₯Ι”ΥΉ₯Ω•ΙΝ”ΈQ‘”™••±₯Ήœ½˜©½δΡ‘…Ё…΅”)½Ω•Θ΅”™•±Π±₯­”…Έ½Ι…Ν΄°‰ΥЁ₯Ё±…ΝΡ•΅Υ ±½Ή•Θ)…Ή$‘₯Ή½Π‘…Ω”ΡΌ­₯¬…Ήε½Ή”½ΥЁ½˜΅δΙ½½΄Έ$)Ρ‘₯Ή¬$•αΑ•Ι₯•Ή•9₯ΙΩ…Ή„Έ$Ι•΅•΅‰•ΘΉ½Πέ…ΉΡ₯ΉœΡ‘”΅½΅•ΉΠΡΌ•ΉΈ($)A…Α„1•‰„₯́΅δ΅…₯ΈΝΑ₯Ι₯ЁΥ₯‘”ΝΌ‘₯́…±Ρ…ȁ₯́…±έ…έ½Έ‘₯ΝΑ±…δ₯Έ΅δΙ½½΄Έ$…΄½ΉΝΡ…ΉΡ±δ)…‘‘₯Ήœ₯Ρ•΅ΜΡΌΡ‘”…±Ρ…ΘΈ$‘…Ω”ΑΙ½Ω₯‘•Ρ‘”Ι•…‘•Θ)έ₯Ρ „Α‘½Ρ½Ι…Α ½˜΅δ…±Ρ…ΘΈ(($()9½Ρ₯”Ρ‘”ΝΡ…ΡΥ”½˜MΠΈ1…ι…ΙΥΜ€΄΄Ρ‘₯́₯́ё”‰₯œ½Ή”)$½Ι‘•Ι•™Ι½΄΅…ι½ΈΈ9•αЁѼ1…ι…ΙΎ₯́„ΝΡ…ΡΥ”)½˜A…Α„1•‰„Έ%ΈΡ‘₯́…Ω…Ρ…Θ°‘”₯́ё”•±‘•Ι±δ‰±…¬)΅…Έέ₯Ρ „Ι•δ‰•…ɐΈQ‘₯́₯́ё”A…Α„1•‰„™Ι½΄)΅δ‘Ι•…΄Έ$½ΠΡ‘₯́ΝΡ…ΡΥ”™Ι½΄„Ν΅…±°…ΉΡ₯ΕΥ”Ν‘½ΐ)₯ΈM…Έ)Υ…ΈΈQ‘”΅…Έέ‘ΌΝ½±΅”Ρ‘”ΝΡ…ΡΥ”Ρ½±΅”)Ρ‘…Ё₯Ё…΅”™Ι½΄„Y½‘½ΤΡ•΅Α±”₯Έ!…₯Ρ€Έ!”…±ΝΌ)Ρ½±΅”Ρ‘…Ё„Y½‘½ΤΑΙ₯•ΝΡ•Ν́‘…Ρ…­•ΈΡ‘”ΝΑ₯Ι₯ΡΥ…°)Α½έ•Θ½ΥЁ½˜₯Π°‰ΥЁ$­Ή•άΡ‘…Ё݅́Ή½ΠΡΙΥ”‰•…ΥΝ”)Ρ‘”ΝΡ…ΡΥ”…ΡΥ…±±δ±½½­Μ‰…¬…Ё΅”ΈMΡ…ΡՕ́½˜M…₯ΉΠ)ΉΡ‘½Ήδ…Ή…Ή•Ν‘„…Ι”…±ΝΌ½ΈΡ‘”…±Ρ…ΘΈ%Ё΅₯‘Π)Ν••΄ΝΡΙ…Ή”ΡΌ™₯Ή„!₯Ή‘ԁ½½ΈΡ‘”…±Ρ…Θ°‰ΥЁ‘”)₯́ё”%Ή‘₯…Έ•ΕΥ₯Ω…±•ΉΠ½˜A…Α„1•‰„ΈQ‘”­•έ½Έ)Ρ‘”…±Ρ…ȁ…Ι”ΑΙ•Ν•ΉΠ‰•…ΥΝ”A…Α„1•‰„₯́ё”‘½½Θ)½Α•Ή•ΘΈ($)5…ΉδΑ•½Α±”‘ΌΉ½Π­Ή½άΡ‘…Ёё”•ΉΡΙ…°Α…ΙΠ)½˜‰½Ρ !…₯Ρ₯…ΈY½‘½Τ…Ή9•ά=Ι±•…ΉΜY½½‘½Ό)₯͕́ΙΩ₯”ΡΌΡ‘”ΝΑ₯Ι₯ΠΈ!…₯Ρ₯…ΉΜ‘ΌΉ½ΠΝ…δ°ƒŠq$ΑΙ…Ρ₯”Y½‘½ΤΈˆ%ΉΝΡ•…°Ρ‘•δΝ…δ°ƒŠq$Ν•ΙΩ”Ρ‘”ΝΑ₯Ι₯ΡΜΈˆ)9ΌΝ•ΙΩ₯”ΡΌΡ‘”ΝΑ₯Ι₯Π°ΉΌY½‘½Τ½ΘY½½‘½ΌΈ5½ΝΠ)!½±±εέ½½΅½Ω₯•ΜΡ‘…Ёɕ™•Ι•Ή”Y½½‘½ΌΉ•±•ΠΡΌ)΅•ΉΡ₯½ΈΡ‘”ΝΑ₯Ι₯ΡΜΈι₯±€…ΉΡ½Θ°„ΑΙ½Ρ•Ρ½Θ½˜έ½΅•Έ…Ή‘₯±‘Ι•Έ°…±ΝΌ΅…‘”…Έ…ΑΑ•…Ι…Ή”₯Έ½Ή”½˜)΅δ‘Ι•…΅Μ…́ё” ±…¬5…‘½ΉΉ„ΈQ‘”΅•ΝΝ…”Ν‘”)…Ι•ΝΝ₯Ω•±δ‘•±₯Ω•Ι•έ…́΅₯Ή‘™Υ±Ή•ΝΜΈ™Ρ•Θ‘•ΘΩ₯Ν₯Π°$‰•…ΈΡΌ΅•‘₯Ρ…Ρ”Έ((0