Stop Suffering ISSUE026 | Page 11

I FELT WORTHLESS Looking back at my life, I can honestly say that it was a mess. My family was being torn apart right before my eyes. Eventually my parents ended up getting a divorce. From then on, things went from bad to worse! I was introduced to pornography and started to get involved with men. Whenever night-time came, nightmares plagued me. As I grew older, my bad behaviour got worse! I began to steal from my parents and would lie to them for no reason. My relationship with my mom was on the rocks; we would argue every day. I was filled with so much hatred towards her that I even went as far as to plan ways in which I could kill her. I would do things for her to become upset because I liked it when she wasn’t happy. I had reached boiling point and even carved ‘I hate my mom’ into my arm with a blade. I was hitting rock bottom, and that’s how I found the UCKG Help Centre. I was full of anger, sadness, grudges and much more. However, after learning and being made to understand that my life could change, through the Sunday meetings that I would attend regularly, I recognised that this change could only come from God. I decided to exchange my old life full of bitterness and hatred, for the life that He had promised for me in His Word. Today I can happily say that I am living a life as a perfect 10! Vanessa G. “The emptiness that I felt ate away at me like a disease. I was miserable and unhappy with no direction, simply because I had allowed the negative words my grandfather had hammered into me, to pave a way for misery. “You’re worthless.” “You’ll never make it.” “Don’t expect anything good to happen to you.” They echoed in my head, sending me into depression. No one saw my tears on the outside, but they were there, staining me from the inside. I tried to forget, but I felt as if I wasn’t worth a penny. However, my life took an unexpected turn. I realised that I am worth something. My grandfather’s words couldn’t hurt me anymore. I’ve changed so much that today, I finally have a sense of direction. I found the strength to forgive my grandfather and restore our relationship. I’m a new man with goals and dreams, and I believe in them and in myself.” David M. STOPSUFFERING|13 SUFFERING|11 STOP