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All things that don’t really fit who I am. I can do them.
But they are not my forte. I’m constitutionally more suited to lighting the path in some very particular ways—holding a vision, showing others their Divine nature, inspiring and uplifting—than any of those other important and necessary actions.
For a while,I believed that the more I dreaded something and the more it drained me, the more worthwhile it was—and by extension, the more worthwhile I could be by doing them.
I thought that maybe, in addition to lighting the way in my own style,I also needed to do things I didn’t enjoy, out of a misguided sense of duty.
I thought: Who else will step up for this tedious and draining work?Just put your head down and do it.
Now I see that we all have our part to play, and that some souls might be perfectly suited to doing the exact things that deplete me. And I know that if I say yes to tasks that drain me, I leak energy. Energy I need for my necessary and important work.
If I’m on my own side, I don’t have to take on mismatched roles,because the deepest part of me knows that only I can be my authentic self. Which is the only role I can play to the hilt.
What I know now is that it’s OK for me to hold a vision in my writing, and to help people see who they really are, and to let other things go. It is more than OK:
It is perfect. I don’t have to be “in the trenches” to make a difference. And I don’t have to justify this seeming lightweight role by taking on more taxing work, just to prove my worth.
If I’m truly on my own side, I don’t have to prove anything after all.
And how refreshing it is to share the load: I can appreciate the diversity of humanity, and honor others as they look to do exactly what they’re suited to do.
It’s been shown that people who freely say “no” actually end up being able to give more, in the long run, than those who agree to anything and everything.
What the more discerning people say “yes” to? will serve the world even as it fills their own well. They’ll end up with even more to give away.
I’ve come to understand, in my study of the human soul, that we all have slivers of the Divine living in us.
We all have the capacity to widen those slivers to radiate more and more of our Divinity.
It’s about discerning who we are not, divesting ourselves of all mismatches. We can stay in our lane, serving in the way only we can, with our particular constellation of gifts, experiences, concerns, and vulnerabilities.
So if I ever feel drawn to some obligation that deflates my energy,
I’ll remember to look again at how authentically I’m living my Divine nature.