God Uses It All
As far back as I can remember, I have
been a dreamer. I wanted to be the
first woman President and change the
world. With lofty goals came detailed
step-by-step action plans that were
written and re-written with each year
of maturity and growth. I was raised
in an environment that often felt very
out of control and this created in me
a very strong need to be in control of
something. I became obsessed with
organization and put an extreme
amount of pressure on myself to do
everything “just right” so I wouldn’t fail
and I wouldn’t let anyone down. So, if
at any point I made a poor decision that
took me off track from my detailed,
life goal plans, I felt hopeless and
wondered if I would ever achieve the
dream in my heart.
After giving my life to Jesus and
beginning to grow my relationship
with Him and my understanding of
His Word, I began to question whether
or not I could actually fail and mess
up my story. I know that God has a
plan for my life and it’s a good one
(Jeremiah 29:11). I know that I am not
a mistake, that God created me just
the way I am, I could never hide from
Him or be lost to Him, and every single
one of my days has been ordained by
Him (Psalm 139). It’s overwhelming to
contemplate just how present in every
moment of my existence, God is. As
I began a journey of inner-healing, I
began to see that He was even with
me before I knew Him and loved Him.
God was there in every dark moment
and point of pain. Once I reached the
other side of my breakthrough, I had a
profound sense that I belong to Him.
Even before I knew it, I belonged to
Him.
Isn’t that what the entire Bible tells us?
From start to finish, it is a story of a
Father who desperately wants to live
in communion with all of His children.
He wants them to have complete
redemption and be reconciled to Him
so much so, that He sacrificed His own
son. So that He could take back what
always belonged to Him; His children.
I wondered if I belong to Him, could I
ever really derail my story? His word
teaches us that He makes all things
work together for our good (Romans
8:28). I believe that God is a loving
father who doesn’t just dangle sweet
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