Solutions August 2018 | Page 66

particularly, when something really big mattered to me. The sad truth is, I’m often making too much racket to hear Him. He won’t try to shout over all the noise in our lives to get our attention. He speaks most clearly in the stillness desperation brings. I’ve also come to see the purpose and beauty in God’s silence. It’s like He’s telling me He knows my heart’s desires and what I’m thinking. He knows what He’s taught me. He’s seen when I’ve succeeded and when I’ve failed. From His point of view, that all rolls up into an unspoken whisper from Him I can almost hear saying, “You’ve got this.” His biggest priority isn’t removing failure as an option but reminding me He loves me as I try. There’s a verse in the Bible that says, “Do not despise these small beginnings.” I love that. It’s a reminder to me God doesn’t just value the big endeavors that work and He isn’t afraid we’ll fail; instead, He delights in our attempts. God knows we won’t do everything picture-perfect either. If we’re being honest, our mess-ups outnumber our successes, probably by a wide margin. More than once, I’ve been a little too close to the rocks and a little out of 66 • Solutions position. I’ve come in a little hot, gone a little long, or fallen a little short in the things I’ve attempted. But God hasn’t been shouting instructions to me as I’ve made mistakes because He doesn’t need to. His silence isn’t indifference; it’s engagement. He isn’t quiet because He’s run out of things to say or is scared about the outcome. It’s because He already believes in me, just as much as He knows the outcome. He already believes in you too. He’s so confident we already know what to do next that He’s willing to be silent even when we ask for His voice. He doesn’t care as much as we do whether we perform perfectly or not. He just wants us to be His while we do it. Most of us don’t need more instructions; we simply need someone who believes in us. If we’re fortunate, God will surround us with friends who know us so well they’ve stopped trying to control our conduct with endless instructions and instead trust that God is at work in our lives, even if He’s doing things we don’t yet understand. It’s perfectly normal and okay to feel afraid and confused and stationary. It happens to all of us at one time or another. We shouldn’t be surprised when