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tient with the process and try to do it ourselves. We end up missing the mark by a mile or more. I’m disappointed in watching the spirits of selfishness, pride, discon- tent and disobedience run wild. No one is perfect, especially not me. As a leader, I pray more these day. I ask God to reveal what he shows me to the members of our ministry. I want them to see it the same way God shares it with me. On the other hand, I believe God has called me to lead this ministry. He has given me a greater insight on how to build it. Still, there were times I’ve considered walking away. I think about how peaceful life would be if my wife and I used the finances and time we pour into the ministry to travel the world. Of course I dismiss these thoughts, but lately they occur more fre- quent. I believe God sent Tamarah, who I refer to as the premature She spoke sound words from the Lord to help me understand what just took place. She stated, “God called you, and he chose you for this moment.” prophet, to address my doubts. Yes, even senior pastors can question their appointment. Little Tamarah, who was used by God helped me see God in a different way. Receiving the Call Her father, Minister Tommie Sims, sent me a text message that would change my life forever. He wrote, “My daughter will be born, and the doctors said she will not live long. WILL YOU COME AND BAPTIZE HER?” This was when little Tamarah went to work. His request was profound and earth shattering for me. I said,”YES!” When I arrived at the hospital, little Tamarah was already born and in 48