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The Berena fandom has in no uncertain terms, saved my life. Before I joined the fandom, I was suffering in silence, struggling to find my place in this world… the fandom is a community of women who feel safe with each other, and we’re almost like a family. Without Berena, I know I wouldn’t be here today. I would have given up the fight a long time ago. My partner died sud- denly and unexpectedly and my life fell apart. Feeling a mutual love for The relationship in the the Berena storyline, among Berena storyline re- young women of a similar age, minded me of our story has made me feel part of a and it helped me pick community unlike any other up the pieces of my programme I have watched life remember our won- before. In less than a year, I derful life together I have come from a place of deep am 74 and my partner unhappiness with who I am, to would have been 80 this beginning to accept that it is August. alright – that I am alright. I now know who I am and have finally admitted it to myself and can at last start liking myself. I had been struggling to identify my sexuality for so long mainly because I believed that I should have known Life would not by my 30s that I was gay but to see be the same a woman in her 50s discover another without them. side to her sexuality helped me realise it didn’t matter It makes me when in life feel brave you discover because it is yourself. there, told on the BBC. I moved to London 8 weeks ago. On my own. I would never have even considered that without Jemma, Catherine and the friends I’ve made through them. My life is unrecognisable compared to before Berena. I feel like a completely different person and I owe it all to them.