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Addict
O is for One and that's too many for me
Don't pick up the first drug and you too can be free
Our Own way has failed us, but if you open your mind
Opportunities and options from god will be signed.
P is for Pity - Poor Little Old Me I would sigh
Through Pipes, Porn and Prostitutes I chased many false highs
Now my Peers and the Programme have helped me to see
That the best P is for Power - one greater than me.
Q is for Queue's - triggering rage I can't Quell
For the Quiet my mind sought, and the Quilt where I'd dwell
Questions seeking Quick fixes, in Quicksand they sink
I need the Fellowship's Qualities
To Quit drugs and drink.
R is for Reservations- A dangerous "perhaps"
Be Rid of them, smash them, don't Reserve a Right to Relapse
Recoery is Rubbished by some addicts with glee
Remember R is for Recovery - and it's Recovery for me.
S is for Selfish, Self Obsessed, so spiritually Sick
Seeking Something to Spark Sad Spirit's Spluttering wick
Share's, Sponsor, Steps - The Solution - "Do what's Suggested" they say
My Spirit Soars doing Service - So to Stay Sober must give it away.
T is for Talking and Truth Telling Too
The Therapeutic value of me helping you
Tea, Traditions and Tears - Learning to Trust
To be Totally abstinent Twelve steps are a must.
U is for Using- the Unhappy tale of my life
Unloving, Unreliable - my addiction was rife
Unconditional Understanding, Unbroken Unity - Us
It's now being useful to others that give me my buzz.
V is for Virtue but also for Vice
Vying Vainly, chose wrongly and so paid the price
Today I have Values - There is always a choice
By Vigorous action I can find my own Voice.
W is for Wistful, Wishing and Why's
Wallowing in a Web of dreams Woven with lies
For Willingness, Work and Wanting to give
We've got to Walk out of Winter to Wake up and live.
X is for Xerxes, an ancient Persian who lost
But knowledge won't save me as I know to my cost
X-Rays and science can see under the skin
But can't tell the strength of the spirit within.
Y is for my "Yets" - Jails and death are the ends
That's where I am going if to relapse descend
You may think I exaggerate or would scare modern Youth
But all I have is my experience and these "Yets" are my truth
Z is for "Zidele Amathambo" - It's An African phrase
"Give yourself up bones as well" because honesty pays
Z is traditionally the alphabet's last letter
But this poem's about a fresh start and a new life that's better…
So…
A is for Abstinence just a day at a time
Could be your road to freedom I'm finding It's mine
Absolute Always and not done in sorrow
It's worked again today so I'll try it tomorrow
Peter R
STEP 4 Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves
STEP 3 Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him