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A is for Addict, which today I accept
unmanageable. Under a carpet of denial for years it's been swept.
For Ache and for Anger, so frequently felt
In self pity city, cursing the hand I'd been dealt.
B is for Brown, blow, Benzo's and Booze
Never thought when I took them there'd be so much to lose.
Powerless, unmanageable, as it says in Step One'
Finally Beaten surrendered, and found that I'd won.
C is for Crack which first made me so high,
Then it grabbed me and robbed me till I wished I would die.
For Community, Conscience, and the Chance I've been given
To be Challenged to Change and find a new way of living.
D is for Drugs, they got me out of my mind
But if I feed my Disease it's only Death that I'll find
For the two Dogs in struggle, one is Dark and one light
And the Decision I've made - feed not the wrong but the right.
E is for Ecstasy, when I'd Dance through the night
And for the Effort and Energy to keep in the light
Each day without warning, my thinking's off beam
Enter the part of the illness that's low self Esteem.
F is for Fantasy, Failure and Fear
Three demons destroying my life year by year
Faith, Friendship and Freedom can all come to pass
Put recovery First to make all things First class.
G is for Guilt a close partner of shame
I always ran from it, finding others to blame
Now I can name it and Give it a voice
It's all down to finding a God of my choice.
H is for Hangovers, Heroin and Hate
believe that a Having a life unfulfilled I believed was my fate
Power greater than Now hope has returned in this Haven we've created
ourselves could Mostly through Honesty which can't be penetrated.
restore us to sanity.
I is for Insecurity, it was hard to refuse
Full of anger and resentment I'd Isolate and use
Impressions were Important - I wanted to win
But the outside won't matter if there's Insanity within.
J is for Jail, a price I will pay
If I ever forget that it's Just for today
Justification and Jangling poured from my gob
Now there's Joy in my heart and it's an inside Job.
K is for Kindness, which for addicts can Kill
It takes tough love and action to puncture self will
"Keep coming back" is the mantra, take your coffee and sit
Use your ears and your mouth they're your arse saving Kit.
L is for lonely, lost, listless and lies
Long come with a vengeance - my spirit it dies
Learning how to Love me, is the answer I'm after
Life on Life's terms through tears and through Laughter.
M is for Methadone, a green maintenance diet
To get crime figures down, and to keep addicts quiet
But the Madness and Mayhem are still within range
Because it's Me Myself that needs the Miracle of change.
N is for Narcotics, whatever their class
If you're an addict like me they can all bite your ass
Negative thinking, "Not Me" - "Not worth it" you say
There's a New life available free through NA.
A is For
STEP 1 We admitted we were powerless over alcohol - that our lives had become unmanageable.
STEP 2 Came to believe that a
Power greater
than ourselves could restore
us to sanity.