50 Pratikraman
Gnan ? In the presence of Gnan , there is no pleasure or pain . 13 . Liberation from Artadhyana and Raudradhyana
Questioner : It is said that two forms of adverse mediations are constantly occurring , one being artadhyan and the other , raudradhyan . Please explain the difference between the two .
Dadashri : Artadhyan involves only you . It occurs when you suffer silently without anyone ’ s knowledge . Raudradhyan is when you suffer and others also suffer because of for your internal state .
A person who is not Self-Realized will experience adverse meditation of the type , which affects him only ( artadhyan ), because he identifies himself with his relative self . He believes that everything that is happening is happening to him . For example , he may start worrying about his daughter ’ s marriage when she is only five years old , or the welfare of his family if he were to die . To worry , or be confused oneself is considered artadhyan .
Adverse meditation that affects others is raudradhyan . Here one blames others for his predicament . To think negatively of others , cheat others , or to wish them harm , is all raudradhyan . Say for example a cloth merchant cheats his customers by stretching the material when he measures it . The moment he decides to cheat his customers , he becomes guilty of raudradhyan .
If a person has committed severe raudradhyan , he can turn it into artadhyan by doing pratikraman . If two people are guilty of the same kind of raudradhyan where they both have expressed a desire to kill someone , their inner state for violence is raudradhyan . If one of them goes home and sincerely repents for having such a destructive bhaav , his raudradhyan will become artadhyan while the other will continue his raudradhyan .