MEDITATION
Think of your mother or father that way, just wanting love, fearing they will
not be. Try to feel the fear
your mother or father has,
and know you too feel
the same. Perhaps, you
are not so different. The
love you seek is also the
love they want. The fear
you have that you won’t
find love, is also the very
same fear they have.
Think of your friends and
other family members
that same way. See the
way they hope for love,
the way they feel disconnected from love, the
way they do love. Where
is the love in all these relationships? In which way
do you love?
It may not be so much,
perhaps,
about
how
much love you get, but
about what you give.
When you see yourself,
the fears, the hopes, the
desires you have for love,
in others, when you see
you are not that different,
then perhaps love blossoms, like a flower in the
mud. We are left full, feeling connected, loved,
even in the face of adversity.
Now think of yourself.
Touch that place of “I just
want to be loved, and
I fear I will not be.” It is
deep. It has been there
likely a very long time. Perhaps it was exacerbated
by your mother, or your father, or someone else. It is
a belief you carry. No one
made it. It is yours. If it is
yours, then you can heal
it. Since you are the one
holding on to it, you can
let it go.
In my experience, we all
have a deep place within
where we fear that we will
not be loved. Sometimes,
around that raw and
fragile feeling, is the feeling of vacant hopelessness. But this will not last.
Beyond all these painful,
dry, and desolate places
is a fountain of unending love. The goodness
of life is within even the
most desolate times if we
allow ourselves to settle
in and open, patiently,
to the flowering spring.
The force of life emerges
again and again, with-
out compromise. It simply
is. Beyond our fear of not
being loved, is love. In our
fear of not being loved, is
love. Around our fear of
not being loved, is love.
The fear itself is love, as it
shows us our very humanity, our potential for openness, receptivity to that
which I would simply call
Grace… the force that is
beyond our ego’s grasp
and comprehension.
When we are willing to
rest, in stillness, quietly,
without fighting, with this
fear of not being loved,
we find tremendous creativity. It is in some ways
the linchpin of the psyche
that moves us from the
grip of the ego into a
place of oneness and
compassion. Rest there,
and you will find love, and
all will change.
Parvati Devi is the editor-in-chief of Parvati Magazine. In addition to
being an internationally acclaimed Canadian singer, songwriter, producer
and performer, she is a yoga teacher and holistic educator. Having
studied yoga and meditation since 1987, Parvati developed her own yoga
teaching style called YEMTM Yoga as Energy Medicine. Her current shows,
“YIN: Yoga In the Nightclub” and “Natamba” bring forward a conscious
energy into the pop mainstream. Her book “Confessions of a Former Yoga
Junkie” is a road map to a revolutionary life makeover for sincere spiritual
seekers.
For more information on Parvati, please visit www.parvati.tv.