OMG Digital Magazine OMG Issue 276 14th September 2017 | Page 5

OMG Digital Magazine | 276 | Thursday 14 September 2017 • PAGE 5
MY ONLY
DRIVE IN LIFE IS
LOVE AND SEX
Confessions
Attracted to his age
Yesterday I was honestly just bored so I changed my Tinder settings to start
showing me guys up to 30 years old. I'm 20 and I've matched with a ton of
these 27-30-year-olds and a lot of them have messaged me. I've been going
back and forth with this one guy all day and we started Snapchatting some
hours ago. The Snapchatting turned into flirting. He is a very good looking guy,
but it's the fact that he's 30 that is really turning me on.
Seriously. It's my only reasons for living. I just don't truly care about anything else
enough to live for it. I don't care about careers, money, politics, drugs, entertainment,
having kids, or anything else.
Self destruction
I'm filled with self-hate
I hooked up with a girl who warned me before hand that she had an std. I didn't use any
protection thinking that with the medication she was on, I would be safe. Now, two months
later, the girl of my dreams wants me to take a test before we get physical. I'm scared out of
my mind. What if I really did contract something. I can't blame the girl because she warned
me and I would lose my girlfriend forever. I hate myself for being so stupid.
I feel that my family is better off without me around. I had an affair about a year ago
and it ended my marriage to my children's father so badly that it left my home in a
mess. Recently I was forced to retire from my job because I stayed home too much. I
broke up with my crazy boyfriend, after my husband and he came to my house and
threatened my daughters so I had to move. I literally uprooted them out of the place
they know and love. Now a year later, fear still guides me. I can't get a job, my family
is under financial strain and I have to constantly talk myself into believing they are
better with me around but in my heart I know it's not true.