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The Hand Me Down Mama told me the backstory. She put our lives in social, historical context and opened to me the door to a vast world of discovery of the past, present, and the future. “You know what ‘hand me downs’ are, don’t you?” she asked. Yes, I knew. I was the seventh child in a family of eight children: four brothers and three sisters. If the clothes of an older brother had not been worn out, they were handed down to the younger brother. I had three sisters. If they had outgrown their clothes and had not worn them out, they also were handed down to me. But it was other hand me downs Mama told me about that brought clarity to me. She told me about the hand me down pain, hand me down suspicion, hand me down fear and hand me down unhealed wounds and anger. Mama told me the man she loved, my father, had all those handed down to him in turn of the century Blocton, Alabama, where he was born and lived and was terrorized until his nineteenth year. His father, my grandfather, had escaped the death camps for former slaves set up in the Sou Ѡѕȁѡ ٥]Ȱٽ)幍ȁѕȁхٕѼ)Ѡ́ݕɔ쁉Ё)ѡȁѡ̰ͅչȁѡѡɕЁ)ѠɍѼ͡ɔɽ)ȁѼݡѕٕȁݽɬѡѕ)Ʌ́ͽ䁙ɍѡѼ)Ցݽɭѡ)5䁙ѡˊéѡȁٕ͕݅́)Ё쁅́չ)䁙ѡˊé݅́Ѽɸ)ЁѡЁݽձٔ)͡eЁ͠Ё)ѡȁɕѥݡЁѽ݅ɑ)!́ѡȁͼٕͅ܁)ɽ͔ݡɔѡ́)ѡȁ䁽ݡͭ䁅)ݽݡɔѡ䁅݅́ɕ)ѡȁеɅѥ́)ѡȸ%Ё݅́ѕɥѕ)ѡˊéѼѡѕ͡а)ȁ她Ѽɽ)ٕ͕ͥ́䁡́ѡȸ)Qɔ݅́䁽хѡ)ѽݸ́ɽٔ́ѼЁѼа)ѡ͵ѡ)͕́ѡЁ她݅)ѕͥѡаЁЁ)ѡЁٕ͕)ȸЁѡхɅѡ)Ё她ɽѡ)ѡѡɽչͥ)́ȁݡɔݡѡ)ݕɔͼ]єѽ́)ЁѼЁѡMѽѡ)ѡ́ͥͅ䁅ѥ)ɥ)ѡɅѕɽȁѡMѠ)䁙ѡȰѡɽ՝Ё́)ݹ́Ѽ )ѡѼ̸%䁡͕)ɡݔ ݼ́)ݹ)Qݸѥ)卡ͽѥݽչ́Ʌѕɽ)ѡݸ䁅)չ䁽ɑȁɕ)ЁѼЃqtЁѼq)ѡ́ѕȻt)%Ё݅́Ѽɸ܁Ѽ)ѠЁЁѡ)$ѼЁѡ)ݹ́ɔݡ$͡ɔ)ݥѠԁݡЁ́Ѽ)$ɥєѡ̸$݅́剔啅́)ݡ$ͭ䁵ѡȁѡ)ݡ丁%Ё́啅́ѕ)а́$ɥєѡ̰$她P)Ёѕ́ͱݱ)͡ѡȁ݅䁽Ё䁕̃P)$ɕ5éݽɑ́Ʌݥѡ)ɕ́䁙ѡˊéɽ啐)܁Սѥٔ)ݹ́ȁչѥ)ѽ)9ѡݕݽչ͍́)ɅѕɽȁЁ݅)eԁɸѼȁԁeЁɸѼٔͅ)͕ݡٕȁ͔ԁ)ɽѡ$Ёչх)$݅́ѕѥ䁅)ѡѥ$Ё݅эѕ))5䁹́ݕɔqݸt)$ɅɅ́ȁ䁽ѡ)QݽɭɐQ͔ݡ)́ɽѡȁݽɬ)ѥ̰ѕ̰̰̰ͥ)ѽ̰̰Ʌɽѕ̰)ѡMѽɑ́ѡЁ)ͅЁЁѡɍ́ȁɽ)ѕ́ѡյȁхեѱ)啐хєѽѡȁͽ)ѽɥ̰՝ͽѥ́ɥ)ͅɽḛݔ)ݸȁЃa)ݸٔѽ́ѽ́ɕ)ѡȃq݅э弁Ѡtq)ɐ́ͽЁt)Qѽ+qѕȁȁ͕t+qeЁՍt+q аɕљհeЁt)Qѽ+qeЁչ䁝dѽѡ)ܻ͡t+qUЁѡɅt)Qѽ+qIȰٕ䁍͕唁eЁͱ)ٕ䁝唁eЁt+q]ɬٔѥɑȁѡٕ剽)͔t+q-͕Ѽ͍)ɸͽѡ͕t)ݡѕٕȃqѕȻt)ѡЁѽѡȁݥѠ)ݸͥ%ѡ)Ё յѥȰɥՅ)ͥɽѡѽɕɽ)ɍ́ѡ Օ́)ɽѡ̸MɕЁͥ́ͅ)͡ѕÝͽѡ)݅ɕ́ɽѡȁ͔Ʌݸ݅)ȁՍ́́ѡЁ)ɑ́չ́Ѽ́)ͽѡ̸q)չ%)Yхtѡ䁍и+q$ЁݕЁɸ$Ё啐̰)хɐɕ̰ѕ́)$Ёɕɥ݅ѕɵ)]ѕɵtͅѡ)ٕх)ݥѠѡȁɕ$ѽɅ)ѡɍх́Ѽȁɕ)ȁՅɑ̰ݥѠѡѼ)ͽѡPѱ݅ѕɵ)]ѡ䁉՝ЃPݥѠѡ)ፕѥѡѡЁ݅́݅)ɥѡPݔ)ɕѽѡٕх)ѡ՝́ɕɥ݅ѕɵ)͡ѡѡх́ѡ)ɍ́ݡɔȁɽݹ)݅ѕѼᅵȁхєȁ䁽)Ёѡ]ٕȁѡ䁉՝)݅ѕɵ䁉Ց́$)͕ѥѕ̸)]啐!ȁ ɹ̰)Q5$Չэ)̸)ḛѡѡ а)ѡ ՍЁ MѠM) ݥѠȁݸ)ݽչ̰̰ȁɅѥ̰)ݔͼݸٔ)ٔѡЁݕɕ䁽)ͥѼ٥ٔ䁽́Ѽ)݅́Ѽݡѕٕȁݔձ)ѼչՍѡ Ёѕ)݅䁙ɽѡ)éѕȰ$ɽєѡͽ)!5ݸ1ٔ)=$ͭ䁵ѡȁݡ䁵)ѡȁݡ$܁ٕȁ)́ɕ݅́ͼ䰁ͼ٥и)]ݕɔ)ɡɕɅ́)ѡѠ)ձ)$ͅѡݡ$ͅ܁)䁙ѡˊéɅѥȁ)չ͡х́䁵ѡȰ)͕ٕͥѕ́ɽѡ̸)$Ёѡ́ͱ̸́)$ͅЁեѱ䁅Ё䁑͍ͬ)ɕ䁡ɥݡЁ݅́)եЁЁ݅́аՅɐ)݅эѕɕɥ)͕ȁѡЁѥ)٥ѡɥѕ́)͹́ѡЁ݅́չ)$ͅ܁ѡȁݕ̸͕$ͅ)ѡȁɕѡ̸]Ѡ܁ፕѥ̰)ٕѡɽչѽЁѼ)役ȁѡ$)Ѽхɔ͕$Ёɽѕа)䁽Ёȁɥи$)݅эݡЁ݅́ )$Ёѡɔ݅́ͽѡ$)ܰͽѡչͽѡ)$Ѽи