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"ONE DAY I'M GOING TO BE THE BEST BODYBUILDER IN THE WORLD." more his self-confidence and feelings of security increased. A teenage Antoine was becoming addicted to bodybuilding. He loved the feeling of being the biggest, the leanest and when looking at himself in the mirror he saw that frightened boy as a man that couldn't be pushed around by anyone. At sixteen years of age he won his first bodybuilding contest. At 5’11, 175 lbs Antoine won the Mr. Granby junior class (under 21). “I had a ripped upper body ready for the beach and super heavyweight bodybuilding legs.” Between the time Antoine won the Mr. Granby show, to 2012 when he won Mr. Canada, he had entered countless shows and was becoming a major player in the amateur bodybuilding world. Magazines were labeling him the next “It” kid; he was a sure bet to go Pro and win big. weeks prior to the 2012 Canadian Nation- als in Edmonton, his long term girlfriend broke his heart. For the next few weeks he managed to train and contest diet but his mind was no longer in the game. Again his support system seemed to fail him and he felt abandoned. His life began to spiral out of control. “I had enough money to spend carelessly without worry. I quit my job at the gym and had saved up tens of thousands of dollars, which I’d later spend on partying and drugs.” He moved into his own apartment and was taking home different girls every night. He was drinking, and abusing drugs. He partied for weeks on end, then crashed for days at a time. He disappeared from the gym and had become a drug addict in less than a year. 2012 CANADIAN NATIONALS After winning the Canadian Nationals, the world was his oyster. “The rush I had from winning was better than the rush any drug could have given me.” Sponsors were lining up and everyone wanted to be a part of his team. He wasn't afraid to ask for what he thought he was worth. The maga- zine Muscular Development signed on as a sponsor and gave Antoine his own column. Universal Nutrition and Iron Bull Strength also became major sponsors. But just three 2013 TORONTO PRO SUPERSHOW Antoine competed in the 2013 Toronto Pro Show and finished dead last. The drugs had replaced the weights in his quest to control his life. Without the drugs he felt depressed and anxious. His sponsors began to withdraw their funding and cut ties with him. He had become emotionally unrav- eled. He was that nine-year old boy again looking for love and comfort except this time he was a drug addict. Something had to change or he'd be dead. strong and most of all, they appeared to be in control of their lives which was some- thing Antoine was missing. At fifteen his mother purchased him a gym membership at Physique Action in Granby, Quebec. Antoine was blown away by the equipment and told the owner, "One day I'm going to be the best bodybuilder in the world." The gym became a second home. The more weights he piled onto the barbells the MUSCLEMEMORYMAG.COM 69