MORE Magazine December 2016 | Page 27

Tresser Henderson Ayoka Boyce: How long have you battled with depression Tresser Henderson: It has been 19 years. Ayoka: That is a long time Tresser: Depression started when my daughter was born. I didn't know what depression was . When she was born I was thrown into a slump that I couldn't explain, I wanted to stay in bed and sleep. I cried everyday. I was not happy I worked in a medical facility and a doctor, Lisa, told me that I had postpartum depression. After that, being African American, depression was frowned upon. I thought depression was a Caucasian thing. I didn’t think that black people get depressed People like me, we pray it away. We don't take medicine. My second child was born 3 years later and the depression got worse. I had suicidal thoughts, I didn't understand why I has having them. I thought to myself,“ Why are you living, why are you here, no one needs you.” It’s hard to explain. But I felt no one else in the world felt like this. Ayoka: How did you cope with being depressed for so long without seeking help?