Months To Years Summer 2018 MTY_Summer2018_v7 - Page 48

Therapy: Giving a Voice to Grief By Joan Heiman After the first month of river-flowing tears, the expression “Go on,” she said. of grief for my husband shifted into what I can only describe as alarming emotional sneezes.  Air-gulping tears “I understand that my mind wants to protect me. This is volcanically erupted at odd times and places, and then, how I’ve habitually coped with pain—thinking my way into just as quickly, subsided—leaving me unnerved and afraid and through it.  But now, I want my heart to lead and the to be out in public.  So, I decided to try therapy. What wisdom of my body to guide me. I want to be open to did I want from it? To do more than sneeze. To unplug whatever this enormous thing we call grief offers: the pain, emotionally.  the love, the loss, and the connection. All.”              “What are you looking for from therapy?” the therapist “Yes,” she said. “Working with the body’s energy-flow, asked at our initial consultation. sensing how your body expresses what’s going on in your mind and emotions, we can move toward healing the “You practice body and energy therapies rather than trauma of Philip’s illness and death.” relying solely on talk.  I talk and think circles ‘round myself, and lately, I feel my mind beginning to hold my sorrow at “I don’t want to hold onto grief,” I said, “but I do want to a distance, other than in unexpected emotional sneezes find my way to embrace the love and the loss as integral that come and go so suddenly, I hardly know what’s parts of who I am now, who I’ll be from here on.” happened. The sorrow is heavy, at times crushing, but it’s where I feel real and sense Philip closest to me.” “You are changed and rearranged by Philip’s death and your grief,” she said. 48