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wanted my father to be to me, who passed  my passing, the one who knew each in his sleep, after a lifetime of protest marches  of the 64 hexagrams in the I Ching by heart, and having been in charge of liberating  who would serenade me on her recorder, the concentration camps in Germany in WWII,  like a gopi, luring her cowherd home,      that he, as Whitman, only stopped somewhere  of my mornings with her invariably brighter. waiting for me, and if he missed me someplace,  When I pass from this life,     upon my death, and for the balm between us  visit long after we both left as managers  not to have been occluded by the linear time of Johnson’s Secondhand Bookstore,      the street-side maples and oaks, while we talked a complete set of Samuel Pepys within reach about Gurdjieff and Ouspensky, how  on her bookshelf, and who declared, watch out      who assuaged me even in his death, when he visited me in a dream, just to let me know  I’d find him in another. I would want to have Ken Angus greet me  that separated us, that we still would have those summer nights, with the breeze rushing through as dusk turned into evening, who made my nights inexplicably sweeter, and all  I would like to see Mrs. Alberta Robertson, affectionately known as Mrs. R., whom I would  she for many years before me, and me for just a few years after, who vowed to have despite our travail, illumination could be found  what you wish for, who was more articulate in our very own backyards.  Of all of my lovers, at 88 than most 40-year-olds, who was a dear friend I would want the one whose lovemaking  and my surrogate grandmother, who could have only made her more virginal to meet me upon   plotted stars as she would guide the lost child in me.   Wally Swist’s books include Huang Po and the Dimensions of Love (Southern Illinois University Press, 2012) and Candling the Eggs (Shanti Arts, LLC, 2017).  His forthcoming books are The Map of Eternity (Shanti Arts, LLC, 2018), Singing for Nothing: Selected Nonfiction as Literary Memoir (The Operating System, 2018), and On Beauty: Essays, Reviews, Fiction, and Plays (Adelaide Books, 2018).  His recent work has been published in:  Adelaide Literary Magazine, Appalachia Journal, Arts: The Arts in Theological Studies, Chiron Review, Crab Orchard Review, The Galway Review (Ireland), Still Point Arts Quarterly, and The Woven Tale Press. He lives in Amherst, Massachusetts. 35