Law of Attraction Magazine Holiday Issue (Nov./Dec., 2018 | Page 16

By Shelley L. Hallmark
I think we all get to a point in our lives when we start asking ourselves the bigger questions about our
intentions, purpose, lessons and patterns, for me this began at age 40.
Until age 30 I lived a very carefree life, I didn?t have
any real focus or direction nor did I have the
awareness to even realize how incomplete I was. The
beginning of my ?awakening? was when my daughter
was born at 24 ½ weeks, a 1 pound 7 ounce preemie.
I was thrust into unknown territory and it required my
utmost attention and focus. Learning to navigate the
language of the medical world while trying to
maternally protect was daunting to say the least. As a
parent of a special needs child I accepted that my
needs were going to be secondary to hers which was a
sacrifice I was willing to make.
Devoting and directing all of your energy into anything can drain you and it is very important to replenish,
something I didn?t make time for. After a few too many repeated patterns I realized I had cornered myself
into a place in life where I felt physically, emotionally and spiritually bankrupt. It was at this point that I
started writing, at the beginning it was just to work out my thoughts and gain some perspective, to find
options as I was having a hard time finding any.
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