Law of Attraction Magazine December, 2017 - Page 23

mouth. As you gradually exhale, feel the steady wind created by your breath. This wind breath connects you to the moving air in the atmosphere that circumnavigates the globe every few days. During the course of its existence, the energy and molecules of your wind breath will subtly touch every other living being on the planet? plants, animals, people, and even rocks. Full-scale awakening can take many years. In general, waking up occurs in three stages: first there is self-awareness awakening, which is followed by spiritual awakening, and then radical awakening. SELF-AWARENESS AWAKENING:LIFE FLOWS LIKE THE WIND In childhood, I developed obsessive tendencies while waiting hours for my estranged father to arrive for a visit. To soothe myself, I would repeat nonsensical phrases and count the cars that drove by. At age 30, these types of compulsive coping skills were sabotaging my career as a chef. Every morning I would pace back and forth in front of the small restaurant I owned, waiting for my most loyal employee to arrive, and then proceed to remind him of his shortcomings. My controlling behavior gradually pushed him and all my other staff toward the exit door. For five years, my restaurant?s reputation had flourished even as I slowly died inside. Running it demanded a level of business acumen I did not yet possess. There were bills to pay, meals to prepare, staff to manage, and customers to wow. What the patrons could not see beneath the perfectly presented plates of food I served them was brewing anger, selfishness, and a growing despondency. My father then died abruptly, ending our difficult relationship. The winds of spirit motivated me to take action. I visited several doctors, wellness practitioners, and psychics, and attended 12-step meetings to deal with my issues with substance abuse. During the first raw days of sobriety, it was as if a tornado ravaged my inner landscape. The winds were so intense that eventually I decided to spend two weeks recuperating in a mental hospital. During one of our regular walks, the hospital psychiatrist suggested that finding answers to my problems required reconciliation with my past. It was good advice, but I was not ready for it. His words left me feeling stranded. I could not move forward because I was unable to forgive others or myself for events of long ago. Eight years later, while driving along a country road, the wind inside me shifted. I was driving with a friend in her gray 1969 Datsun convertible under a wind-tempered sun, along the back roads of Route 20. It was the perfect central New York day for a top-down excursion. Black-spotted dairy cows ambled across the fields. I lifted my head toward the heavens and felt the warmth on my skin. Suddenly, a glimmering wind exploded in the center of my being and illuminated my consciousness. In that moment, I saw billowing clouds moving apart and revealing the cerulean blue of a clear sky. For the first time in my life, I knew that I did not want to engage in self-destructive addictive behaviors anymore. It was as if a fog that had been blinding my vision of who I ?could be? was instantly lifted. This moment of clarity was so intense that it served as the catalyst for a 25-year adventure to heighten my consciousness further. For most of us, the urge to ?wake up? is evoked by an experience that profoundly disturbs us or interferes with the progress of our lives. Longing for deeper connection creates an opportunity for us to change and do things differently or move in a new direction. Because we must be willing to change, experiencing the self as Page 23 - Dec., 2017