non-profit back then and needed to get work
done during all hours, or at least that’s what I
thought. Where it goes from bad to worse in
the video is where you see me sitting with the
laptop on my lap and my kids trying to show me
their splits or dances or cheerleading moves and
my head is buried in the laptop and you hear
them say. “Mom, did you see that?” and my
immediate answer, “Yes, it was wonderful. Great
job!” Now, let’s go to the videotape…I didn’t
even look up while they were dancing, etc. Not
a great feeling for them to see that or for me to
see that replayed. I was living numb and being
that hamster on the wheel, living on total cruise
control. Going through the motions of life. Not
paying attention to what was important to me.
I had a high need for success, wanted to move
up the ladder, and more importantly with each
move I was able to take better financial care
of my family. I didn’t realize during that time it
was raining for a good ten years on the inside. I
wasn’t happy with all the pressure I had and the
way I was choosing to spend my time, but didn’t
think there were many other options. Why make
waves? In hindsight the answer is clear, but back
then it wasn’t.
All I did was feel guilty for the time I wasn’t
spending with the kids and that didn’t serve
me or them.
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It took one day for me to have my “ah ha!”
moment and realize that the career I was in
wasn’t my dream and what I was doing with my
time was limiting the amazing moments that I
know I wanted to share with my family. I wasn’t
living my life’s passion. I was settling. More
importantly, my dream was always to inspire,
help, and empower others. I was doing that
through my current work, but not to the extent
that I knew I could offer so many others.
At one of my executive events, a life coach
spoke as the keynote speaker and she took
the audience on this amazing journey from
crying to laughing, ultimately inspiring those
in the audience long after her presentation.
That day changed my life, but not for long.
Even though I had the “ah ha” moment
I wasn’t ready to make the change. I just
allowed it to be what it was. Wit h two kids and
a full time career, how was I going to go back
to school and become a Certified Professional
Coach? I couldn’t find time to do anything, let
alone go back to school for over 300 hours.
Was I ready to change the weather?
Fast forward to two years later. My Dad
suddenly got sick. The turning point was when
he suddenly passed away and I realized that life
is very short. I promised him I would do what I
knew my life’s work was supposed to
be. So one day, in order to connect
with him like most people do when
someone leaves us, I looked up to the
sky. I had another “ah ha” moment,
I saw this amazing beauty. It was like
the first time that I had allowed myself
a time-out to just be. The sky was no
longer just blue. I saw hues of blues,
periwinkle within the color palette, and
the clouds were no longer just white. I
actually saw shapes of different things
in the clouds. I felt like I was awake