July 2016 Magazine | Page 89

T he screaming was intense. The two-yearold behind me was exercising every conceivable vocal chord at top volume. We were just beginning a flight to Orlando and she was buckled firmly into her support seat, squirming, fighting for release from her bondage. No doubt she felt trapped, a victim of circumstance. She did not like what was happening! “Out!. Out, mommy. Out!” she proclaimed, begging, demanding her freedom. Some adults turned around in distain, their scowling faces revealing their inner feelings. Others just smiled, as if they had been through something similar themselves in previous times. I marveled at how the little one could keep this up, ten, fifteen, twenty minutes. My ears hurt. Meanwhile, Mom quietly consoled her precious one, “Relax, it’s OK. You’ll be just fine.” The parent knew that despite her daughter’s rampage, her loved one was not getting out of that child seat. It was for her safety. Until the plane was flying above anticipated turbulence, the rules established were protecting her. She was not yet aware that her mother’s ignoring of her pleas was not abandonment or a display of meanness, as it may have seemed to the little one. Many of us knew that sooner or later, this delightful child would give up, surrender to her reality, and, in doing so, would be delivered from the agony of her rebellion. Gradually, slowly but surely, as the child’s resistance gave way to acceptance, she calmed down. She was still strapped in where she didn’t want to be—nothing changed on the outside—yet the pace of her breathing slowed and deepened. She began to take in the love of her mother. She noticed the happenings outside her plane window. She seemed to enter a trance state, floating almost, and, after a few more whimpers, tension gone from her body, she gradually drifted off to sleep. Then I remembered how often I act like that when I don’t get what I want, though perhaps not as loudly or with the same external fervor given my more controlled adult conditioning. Nonetheless, inwardly at least, I carry on my tantrum, begging God to change my situation, feeling victimized by life circumstance, demanding my own way, insisting I know better. And I wonder how often God waits patiently with me, as this mother did with her daughter, not giving in, but reassuring. “Relax, David. I have the big picture. I’m taking care of you, and although you don’t understand now, love is all around you.” eydismedia.com 89