Jasmine's Place Issue No. 19 - September/October 2017 - Page 71

E RUN God and I were in a tug-of- war and I didn't need anyone else on His side. Lori Dixon me with their non-confrontational attitudes. But now that song was pounding on my head and heart, demanding to be played again. To be considered. Gravel sprayed up as I pulled off the side of the road. Putting the car in park, I rubbed my throbbing hands together, suddenly aware of the death grip I must have had on the steering wheel for the last few miles. I switched on the car stereo… Once again it was the third verse that got to me. It made so much sense. As I mulled over the word, 'fetter', I pictured my daughters at the school fair only a few weeks before. There was an inflatable bungee run that had belts which were tied around the girls' waists. They would run as fast as they could towards the end of the bouncy lane but just when they would almost reach the finish line, the springy tether would pull on them and they would go flying backwards to where they started. God had a bungee cord around me. I could sense it. The faster I ran, the more tension I could feel and the harder I would fall. He was not letting go. Turning the sound up to a near deafening level, I put the song on repeat and let the words wash over me again and again. Who was I kidding? My wandering heart was fettered, and I did love Him. Finally surrendered, my shoulders dropped as my hands raised . . . "Here's my heart, Lord, Take and seal it, seal it for thy courts above.“ Author's note: This is a true story. I no longer have my mother, but I still have my Lord … and the CD. Copyright Lori Dixon Wife, mother & servant of Christ www.LovingKindnessMinistries.ca Lori@LovingKindnessMinistries.ca Article Source: http://www.faithwriters.com CHRISTIAN WRITER JASMINE'S PLACE 71