Jasmine's Place Issue No. 19 - September/October 2017 - Page 13

In 2007, I suffered a series of severe panic attacks which led to the diagnoses of post-traumatic stress disorder, along with panic and anxiety. This diagnosis led me on a step by step quest to find answers to the many questions I had regarding my past, choices I made, and things that had happened to me. I slowly began to recognize patterns in my life: 1. Always taking responsibility for others’ choices, behaviors, and feelings. 2. Putting things under the rug; never confronting. 3. Ignoring red flags in relationships. It took time for me to sort through the puzzle pieces of my life and begin to see the patterns I was in and why. This process wasn’t about blaming anyone or becoming a victim. In order to move forward in a positive way I had to accept and acknowledge certain things in my life, whether they were about me or someone else. There were several areas in my past that I had to confront. One of the hardest was my past choice of abortion. I have had three abortions. JASMINE'S PLACE 13