Jasmine's Place Issue No. 18 - May/June 2017 - Page 19

In my first year of high school, social services came to speak to me. Mum had got herself into another violent relationship and it was then that we moved into Gypsy Lane Hostel in Rochdale. It wasn’t the first time we’d been in a hostel. That’s when I started smoking and by the time I was 14, I ended up pregnant. Unfortunately, “adulthood” wasn’t new to me because at just over 10 years, I was used continually for a period of 12 months. By 17, I was back in Gypsy Lane hostel but this time with my own child and for the same reason my mum was there (running from a violent relationship). I was following in my mum’s footsteps and had even started taking other drugs like speed and ecstasy, and dabbled in a bit of coke. I left that hostel and after 9 years of not seeing my dad I got back in touch with him and he came to stay with me. It was while he was staying at mine that he asked me to go and score some drugs for him. I didn’t want to go but he kept on at me so eventually I went.. Later that night he took those drugs and they triggered off a brain haemorrhage. I came downstairs the next morning to find my dad DEAD on the floor!! The drugs I had scored for him had killed him. That was the worst experience of my life and I was so consumed with guilt. 9 years later I was still consumed with guilt and by now had 2 children and was living on my own. It was during this time I met a girl called Jo who took me to a conference called Fixed. On 23rd March 2013, I arrived at Fixed and it blew me away I was gripped! So many times during that day, I felt God was speaking to me and there were opportunities for me to respond and ask God into my life but I just didn’t move, not until the final time in the evening and I just shot out of my seat. I walked to the front and I prayed asking God to come into my life. I became a Christian. It was then I felt the guilt and shame I had lived with for years just lift! I started going to church and within 6 months I was baptised. Statistics say I should have problems with addiction, suffer damaging mental troubles and have a slim chance of a high quality relationship! But I am glad to say I have NO addiction, NO mental troubles and I’ve just celebrated my second wedding anniversary with my wonderful husband, Brad, who is my former pastor’s son. Jesus freed me from guilt and showed me that with God, we are more than just a statistic. To contact Adelle, email Flourishkcc@outlook.com or visit her church website. www.kirkholtcc.co.uk JASMINE'S PLACE 19 19