Jasmine's Place Issue No. 12 - July/August 2014 - Page 21

Paula Mowery Paula Mowery: Relationship with God - As I faced my infertility battle, I'm afraid I pushed God to the side. I came to realize that I was afraid to let go of any control I thought I had because I feared that my goals and God's wouldn't match up. Of course, I had to come to the end of myself just like the prodigal son. I had no control over whether I got pregnant or not. That fact frustrated me and embittered me to the point of depression. When I finally admitted to myself and God that I didn't have control and I needed Him, my attitude changed. By returning to my relationship with the Lord, I could better face disappointments, especially when I accepted the fact that God wasn't punishing me. His promise is true when He says He will be with us in the valleys. He is the greatest source of comfort and really will bring good out of bad situations. E