If and Only If: A Journal of Body Image and Eating Disorders Winter 2015 | Page 33

Still, it’s difficult to realize

your heart’s beating slower

trying to forget the sugar it desires.

Begin to hide

My face reminding me

I’m becoming a lesser person.

In all honesty I’m not sure

it’s worth it.

I’m just not sure.

Laying in bed thinking

about not thinking about

ice cream, chips, or dear God

a bar of chocolate.

Nothing tastes as good.