If and Only If: A Journal of Body Image and Eating Disorders Winter 2015 | Page 114

Catori Sarmiento

Eating Is Dangerous

I

Never mind the stomach and its superficial cries; stave off rumblings by drinking black coffee at the quarters of the day. Exercise is purging. Diuretics negate daily bloat.

A good day is 500 calories.

II

Mousy thin skin over sharp clavicles. The longer I look at the shapes, they become engorged.

Scale numbers lie with 90.

III

A body can be controlled through restraint.

IV

Quarter eaten burrito sits on crumpled newspaper in a lunchroom trash bin. Still fresh.

A portion tasted lead my fingers to selfishly push food past lips for teeth to chew and throat without self-control so it would swallow.