His Heart Scribe Inspirations Devotional Magazine May - June 2014 Volume lll Number 4 May - June 2014 | Page 23

His Heart Scribe Inspirations --May/June 2014

to walk away released on good
terms, but rather
than do that, my
former leader concocted a series of
lies and accusations
against
me. If that wasn't
bad enough, she
went public with
much of it. To say I
was hurt was an
understatement. I
had invested many
years
into
her
work and ministry
and trusted her in
many areas of my
life. She wasn't just my leader, in
some ways, she was also considered
a friend. She was also, in the truest
sense of the term, a "spiritual mom"
to me, one who
helped me develop
my apostolic call,
understand it, and
set me where I
needed to go so I
can be where I am
and am going today.

(Continued from page 13-Release)

life are just awful and they
are just what they are and nothing anyone says
to us about what happened
can make it feel, seem, or
be
different
than
it
was. Accepting this is the
first step to letting go of
some of these issues, but it
is
certainly
not
the
end. We can still be
searching for something in
that void to change it or
somehow restore who we
feel like we were before it
happened. We need to
reach a point where we
don't feel like less of who we are because of what someone else did.
---In 2010, I was "released" from the
ministry I had been under
for three years prior. I
knew it was coming, I
knew time was up - six
months earlier, in fact but I didn't leave when I
should have. I didn't leave
because I loved my leader
and
was
comfortable
where I was. Yeah, I am
going to use that word comfortable. I was able to
absorb into her work and
not focus on my own, as
the work God called me to
often has left me frustrated over time. It would
have been enough for me

---I knew it was
time, I just didn't
know the way it
was going to happen was going to
be
so
offensive. But I suppose
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