her great work yet in the end she realized there were people with ulterior motives who use this higher knowledge for show off and to manipulate people , instead of self growth & realization of truth .
Though such types of people were few yet they were very powerful people of that era who influenced the world , she felt really bad about this in her last years . In this birth her learning was to “ let go ” her master said whatever you did was for your own learning so forget about how people have seen and used it just move ahead .... she couldn ’ t . When she came out of this session she was feeling lighter yet sad as she didn ’ t follow her master ’ s teaching 100 %. In that life she had name and respect though not wealthy yet respected by wealthiest & most powerful people .
Then she came for her second session , in this we reached one of her life where she was very powerful leader and general of an army , respected and feared by many she earned great wealth . She fought many battles to make this world a beautiful and righteous place to live and again to realize in the end nothing matters .
She was blamed by her own people for cruelty , power hunger and many mishaps . In this birth she chose different path for same purpose as her previous birth for no avail . Popular , respected lead many groups and army yet despised , accused & blamed for many mishaps because of all these things this person got confused . If she is going in right direction or she is just making things more difficult and complicated . Again in this birth instead of focusing on her Karma she was more concerned about its outcome and that was making her miserable in both the lives .
In both lives her learning was same that she was not following , and that suffering of past lives create problem in this life . You must be wondering how ? Well now her previous birth ’ s experience of success has generated fear in her subconscious mind , so in this birth as and when she starts coming closer to success her subconscious mind begins to point how success brings misery and suffering in her life . Most amazing part is her conscious mind is not aware of it and all this time she & many other around her felt she has fear of failure when actually she has fear of success ... and all this time we didn ’ t even recognize there is any fear of success kind of thing .