Then I wake up.
The Mona Lisa I am told is not huge, nor a gazillion other much loved works of art.
In the end big just means you can see it from further away, or you can put it on your castle wall or some other large scale space.
Size doesn't matter at all.
It doesn't mean anything.
Maybe this is the time for small, mi casa is not a castle of huge proportions.
Apart from not being able to afford the chemicals alone, the trays, enlargers, plates, paper etc......down here at 'nearly the bottom of the earth' small can be hugely amazing and captivating.
My reality is that I find great happiness and learning in doing the small things.
Long may it continue!