Flumes Vol. 2 Issue 2 Winter 2017 | Page 119

January 1, 2017

This is most likely going to be the oddest email you’ve ever received, at least through your work address. My name is Amy, I’ve been a teacher with the board for 13 years now. This isn’t why I’m reaching out to you though. From reading your biography for the board website, and from conducting other research, I’ve come to understand that your maiden name was Fallis. I had a previous name as well that you may recognize from long ago. For a very short period of time my name was Joycelyn Dawn Fallis and I was born April 4th, 1978 - a few days later my name became Amy Lynn Ross. From my research, I’ve come to understand that your younger sister was my birth mother and that at the time of my birth you knew of my existence.

Please don’t let this email fill you with trepidation. The modern age of interconnectivity is wondrous in how, through the proficient use of Google and Facebook, someone can find almost anyone. There is a reason that I am writing to you and not contacting your sister directly. Firstly, I guess I’m looking for someone to give me confirmation that I am indeed correct. Secondly, I am seeking your guidance. I am a 38 year old woman and I understand very well that choices we make as teenagers are sometimes best to stay in the past. I don’t want to stir up drama or make my birth mother’s life overly difficult or complicated. I would not want to assert myself into a woman’s life if it were best that I didn’t, or upset children that would otherwise have never known of my existence. I have no ill-intent, I am not a mean or vengeful person out for spite. I am also a person with my own vulnerabilities who has dealt with issues of acceptance and rejection my entire life and would rather not put myself fully out there to once again be turned away by her.

I know this email and knowledge now puts you in an awkward position, and I apologize for this. I guess I selected you because you were

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