fertility medicine given daily through a shot in the stomach, you hopefully will grow 2-3 mature eggs, instead of your average 1, that they will schedule you to ovulate through another shot in the stomach, and then inseminate you with your husbands best swimmers. Giving you a better chance of one egg fertilizing, sticking, and growing into a healthy baby. I know, all of a sudden Cinderella’s problems didn't seem like much at all. Really Ariel? Your a mermaid and the love of your life is a human?Awwww…you poor thing. Pshh!
A couple weeks later we went in for our 8 week ultrasound, just praying to see a healthy growing little baby with a beautiful heart beat. Well multiply that by 3 and thats what we got. Yep, surprise! Its triplets! THREE! Three tiny little humans were growing inside of me. Just let that sink in for a second. Shocked, excited, thankful, scared, flabbergasted! That can pretty much sum up the emotions I was feeling. I remember just being so incredibly thankful and almost had this sigh of relief that God didn't fail me. That HE finally listened to me and then did exceedingly and abundantly like HE promises. Nothing could top how happy we were. Our happily ever after had taken some crazy twists and turns, but us and God were finally on the same page. Or so we thought.
Like clock work, 7 days later we went in for
be awake, a family member reached out to me via email and asked me how I was doing. Planning on just ignoring it like I did the rest of the world it came with a follow up email that stopped me dead in my tracks. “ I know you must be angry, confused, frustrated and frankly pissed at God. But I want you to know that HE can take it. HE can take you yelling at him, screaming at him, cussing at him, whatever it is you are feeling… HE can take it. Let HIM know.” It wasn't more than a couple days later when I was driving home from the grocery store that I literally felt this ball of anger filling up inside of me. I had to pull my car over and just let God had it. I don't think I have ever in my life yelled at someone as much as I did HIM that day. I screamed, cried, cursed, I mean I completely lost it. I let it all out to the point where I couldn't catch my own breath. And you know what God told me after I felt I had ripped him a new one? “Im glad you are talking to me.” And I just sobbed. Boogers dripping, drool hanging, I just hung my head and sobbed. It was in that moment I felt Gods presence that I had been wrestling with for 2 years. I felt the presence of the Lion, that stood there strong and tough and just let me beat on him in every which way because my heart needed it. And then moments later I felt the presence of the Lamb that curled up next to me and allowed me to feel his gentleness.
Naturally, like all fairytales after our wedding we became pregnant. Life was turning out exactly how God had written it in all those books I grew up reading
Naturally, like all fairytales after our wedding we became pregnant. Life was turning out exactly how God had written it in all those books I grew up reading
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