Faith Filled Family Magazine November 2016 | Page 33

Checking Out of
Heartbreak Hotel
BY GABRIELLE ELISCO

M

y heart sank into
my
stomach.
“Here it comes,”
I thought. That
well-scripted, rehearsed set of
break-up words. You know, the
ones everyone says, but you’re
not supposed to say? “It’s not
you, it’s me. If it’s meant to be,
we will find our way back to each
other.” Maybe you even delivered those words to someone
yourself. Regardless, breakups
are difficult. Even when you see
them coming, and both parties
know it’s the most sensible decision, they’re tough. We wonder
in our minds if we made the right
decision, if we should give it another try, or maybe we are right,
and it’s time to part ways. But
how do we know?

route on my pursuit of my relationship with Christ, a man I had
known was reintroduced to my
life. I had always been interested
in this guy due to His walk with
the Lord. “Wow,” I would always
think, “What would it be like to
be with him?” He was worshiping the Lord with an overflowing
heart in church every Sunday,
he was on fire for God, and he
radiated what I thought would
be a godly man. We had spent
time together before, but it had
never quite worked out; we were
friends. We traveled down different roads, spent time apart, reconnected, disconnected, back
and forth, back and forth. This
time was different, though. We
“clicked” and we grew to care
for one another. I was sure this
was ordained by the Lord. We
In a season in my life where I re- committed to a relationship, and
mained single for a bit of time, I I had finally gotten what I wantpursued God relentlessly regard- ed. I was sure because this man
ing the matter. I chased Him fer- was seeking God, I was seekvently, and was so preoccupied ing God, God must have sought
with my chase after Him that I us to be together also. We were
became less interested with the supposed to be with each othearthly company I had, or lack er, I convinced myself. You can
there of. I cared about Him, not imagine the relief and exciteabout him. My focus was on the ment I had felt when we commitSon of Man, not just any man. En ted to a relationship.