Faith Filled Family Magazine November 2016 - Page 33

Checking Out of Heartbreak Hotel BY GABRIELLE ELISCO M y heart sank into my stomach. “Here it comes,” I thought. That well-scripted, rehearsed set of break-up words. You know, the ones everyone says, but you’re not supposed to say? “It’s not you, it’s me. If it’s meant to be, we will find our way back to each other.” Maybe you even delivered those words to someone yourself. Regardless, breakups are difficult. Even when you see them coming, and both parties know it’s the most sensible decision, they’re tough. We wonder in our minds if we made the right decision, if we should give it another try, or maybe we are right, and it’s time to part ways. But how do we know? route on my pursuit of my relationship with Christ, a man I had known was reintroduced to my life. I had always been interested in this guy due to His walk with the Lord. “Wow,” I would always think, “What would it be like to be with him?” He was worshiping the Lord with an overflowing heart in church every Sunday, he was on fire for God, and he radiated what I thought would be a godly man. We had spent time together before, but it had never quite worked out; we were friends. We traveled down different roads, spent time apart, reconnected, disconnected, back and forth, back and forth. This time was different, though. We “clicked” and we grew to care for one another. I was sure this was ordained by the Lord. We In a season in my life where I re- committed to a relationship, and mained single for a bit of time, I I had finally gotten what I wantpursued God relentlessly regard- ed. I was sure because this man ing the matter. I chased Him fer- was seeking God, I was seekvently, and was so preoccupied ing God, God must have sought with my chase after Him that I us to be together also. We were became less interested with the supposed to be with each othearthly company I had, or lack er, I convinced myself. You can there of. I cared about Him, not imagine the relief and exciteabout him. My focus was on the ment I had felt when we commitSon of Man, not just any man. En ted to a relationship.